The Points in MY LIFE!

...: My Brain

This has ... infront of it, because this classifies as a A/N. And i'm just too lazy to add something in :/. Now listen, before I tell you anything, I have a similar dilema to how the youtuber "JaidenAnimations" is having. By the way, bless the girl, she is so talented, and yet is going through something so terrible. So here is my problem, my brain is weird. Quite weird, let me show you a example. One guy texted me, and he was slightly annoyed with my response on one of his chapters. Now lets stop here, most people wouldn't care about this message he sent, some would ignore it. Maybe, some would even try to delete their comment, or ignore them. But for me, it may seem like if you post a annoying message, and I don't respond, I didn't care. Truth be told, my body feels like that, but my brain has other ideas. Now, being weird and annoying in REAL LIFE is a little less worse then on the internet. In real life, no body really cares that much, but the internet is different. There are MILLIONS of people on the internet, and a few million on wattpad! It's really stressful what you post online...could change you and your friend relationship. And that's my brain, it's always over complicating things. My brain keeps second guessing on EVERYTHING, things I say, questions on a quiz, even things I say to friends. And so, when someone seems annoyed on the INTERNET, I really try not to go on a break out. I am so STRESSED, what if they think i'm weird? What if they think i'm a idiot? What if I AM a idiot? What would happen then?  And another bad thing, if people don't respond to my texts for a while, even though I know they are on, and can respond. ITS HORRIBLE! I hate it so much! I am always stressed when it happes! Did I post the right thing, maybe the right way? Did I do something wrong? Did I mess up my text? Should I delete this? It's scary to me, my brain just thinks i'm loosing friends when, everything is ok! That comment they made? Could have been that they were grumpy a bit, but they still dont HATE me. But my brain just doesn't care, it beleives what it beleives, and sometimes...thats my demise. Another example, when I lost so MUCH of my homework, I got a low grade on a quiz, I couldn't get into my house. I was stressed, and thats when I started crying. Whenever I cry, I don't show it infront of my mom or dad, only when it's caused by them :/. My crying got worse, I couldn't stop, I kept crying, and I threw everything nest to me on the ground. I was so stressed, my brain couldn't hold it all in. But, it turned out I was over complicating things. I called my mom and told her everything, she said she had my homework, we could go over the quiz when she gets home, and that everything was fine now. My brain didn't know that did it?  It thought it was the end of the world! I couldn't beleive it when I heard it, my brain had told me it was the end, but it wasn't. Now, maybe someone of you may be thinking, why does this happen? It's because of the imperfectness of our brains, they autmatically fill in blanks. When we don't know what is happening, our brains fill in blanks that aren't really true or right. My brain is a victim of this, and I often had a lot of stress latley for the internet. Especially now that i'm getting into higher grades of school, so thats one factor. Now, I bet HALF of you didn't read this, or didn't care. You know what? Scratch that! I bet three quarters of you KNOW this is posted, but didn't care to read it! And you know what? I understand you! You don't wanna waste your time listening to some guy rant about his bad boy brain! You wanna be out there, roleplaying, doing all sorts of stuff! But for those who stayed here, to my rant. I thank you for understanding, and I thank you for caring. Thank you.

( P.S: Blue, if your reading this. I'm sorry for what I posted ._.)