TRUST ME - a Joult fanfic- Book 2

TRUST ME - chapter 3

Chapter 3:

I quickly slide out of bed and switch the shower on. Whilst the cold water runs down my body, cooling me down, I try my hardest to remember the last time me and Nic made love. Goosebumps cover my body, and I begin to shiver.

I switch off the shower, grab a towel and dry myself down before falling back into my bed. I spread my limbs, and sigh. I miss Nic so badly, I crave him. I now know the thing in which I've been feeling these last couple of weeks, does not mean I don't love Nic anymore but in fact means the complete opposite. I miss our passionate intense love making sessions.

I feel relieved, as a great weight of guilt lifts of my shoulders. I do love Nic, with all my heart, I was stupid to think that I felt nothing for him anymore. I bury my head into a pillow and try to remember the dream I just awoke from.

Wait. Josh. Why was he in my dream? Why was I dreaming of things he used to do to me, when we were madly inlove. No. What am I saying? I remind myself that we were never inlove, I loved him, whereas Josh loved my body, and what my body is capable of. Tears slide down my reddened cheeks, as the feeling of uselessness returns to me again.

Just as I am about to drift off to sleep because of how exhausted I am, my phone vibrates on the bedside table next to me. I unlock my phone and read the new text:

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Hey Jen

How are you? How's your baby? I was just wondering if you want to meet up for a chat. I completely and utterly understand if you don't want to, or even if you ignore this text.

Best wishes

Josh

xxx

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I wipe the tears from face with my sleeve. I would quite like to meet up with Josh just for chat, to check up on how he's doing. Even though he hurt me, I still care about him but I don't trust him entirely, if we're going to meet up I'm going make sure it's at a public place, so that he can't hurt me and even if he has the decency to damage me again, there will most definitely be witnesses. I start to type a reply back to Josh.

After I click send I relax my mind and shut my eyes.

Should I tell Nic about me meeting up with my abusive ex-boyfriend?