TRUST ME - a Joult fanfic- Book 2

TRUST ME - chapter 5

Chapter 5:

As I'm Pouring myself a drink, to quench my thirst, I think about Josh. How broken he was yet he still had the decency to be so rude and hurtful towards me.

Suddenly I'm interrupted, deep in thought, by the phone ringing. I shake my head to try rid my mind of constant thoughts of Josh. I don't understand why I feel so guilty? I didn't do anything wrong. Did I?

"Hello?"I say calmly, answering the phone.

I'm shocked to hear a voice, I haven't heard in a long time.

"Hey Jen, it's Emmie."

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Emmie and a new friend named Emily, who Emmie came friends with back in England, sit beside me on the couch. We occasionally sip at our hot, steaming drinks that lay on the coffee table in front of us.

Jumping straight in it, I start to inform Emmie and Emily of my current situation, as if I only saw Emmie yesterday when in reality the last time I recall seeing her was probably three months ago. I've missed her.

After I've finished my miserable rant, the girls sit in silence before me until finally Emily speaks up.

"Why do you keep thinking about your ex-boyfriend? Josh." She sips at her tea before continuing. "Surely you want nothing to do with him after all the fucking horrible things he caused to happen to you?"

I glance at emmie, offended for a second until I realise that Emily's correct. She speaks the utter truth.

"Honestly. I have no clue. I think...I think I feel guilty. Yeah... I feel sorry for Josh even though I know I shouldn't." I manage to say.

"Why did you go and meet with him yesterday?"

"Because I wanted to see how he was doing. For myself. Plus I had a thew questions which have been tearing me apart for fucking ages and I wished for them to be answered."

Emily nods and then says. "And were they?"

"Yes. But...I learnt some things I didn't want to know."

"Jennifer, I think your using Josh as a distraction at the moment. You currently have no other company in this house besides your newborn baby....who's gorgeous by the way."

I smile and look over at my angel like daughter,Layla's quietly playing on the floor, before turning back to Emmie and Emily.

"So what should I do?"

Emmie and Emily glance at each other giggling.

"You need Nic!" They both say.

My heart skips a beat, at the mention of his name, my mind trails off trying to recall the passionate rather realistic dream I dreamed the other night. I grin just thinking about it.

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The moon shines through the kitchen window, I sit, legs crossed at the kitchen table, gulping down my white wine.

Silence.

Layla's fast asleep. Hopefully having pleasant joyful dreams whereas I on the other hand am weary to go to sleep.

I so badly don't want to dream of Nic, I'm certain it will hurt. Deep down in my tender heart. I sigh as I refill my glass.

Thank god for alcohol.

Suddenly my phone flashes, lighting up the dark room for a second. I read the text with wide eyes.

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Hey baby. Good news, I'm coming home early! I should be home tomorrow evening. Can't wait to see you. Give our daughter my love will you? xxx

Nic

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I squeal in excitement. Nicholas is coming home to me. Overjoyed, I jump into bed, wishing I would fall asleep faster, so that tomorrow can come quicker.