(Warning if you listen to Ed Sheeran while reading this, you are guaranteed to cry)
Lucas POV
I'm home now. Maya has been distant, but she has been taking care of me. She shouldn't. I should be taking caring for her and our baby? She said she was pregnant right? Yeah. I feel like the worst person ever. I mean really Lucas?!? Another women pregnant?!? And I didn't even get to meet the Lil guy or girl. I usually fall asleep before Maya, but last night I woke up because I was hot. As I cracked my eyes I saw a sobbing Maya. I did that to her. She finally saw me and got up and continued to cry. Her crying was the worst thing ever. I checked on Presley who was sound asleep. I then went to the door to hear Maya's soft sobs.
"Maya?"
Nothing. Just sobs. It was killing me. Tears started to form in my eyes. I slid down the door, crying, hoping everything was going to be ok.
Now its the morning and Maya hasn't spoken at all, well to me at least.
"Maya, I think we need to talk."
"About?"
"A lot of things. Last night."
She looked down, sighed and looked at me with tears forming.
"Sure."
When she cries, I cry. And that was exactly what I was doing.
"Maya, I never want to hurt you. I-i know I did, but I didnt want to. I didnt mean to. I didnt know. The only person i-i will ever love is you. I m-messed up i-i know. b-but Maya I love you. We love each other. I'm sorry I messed up."
"Lucas this isn't just that you slept with her. You could have had a kid with her. That kid is dead now. That's something you have to live with. I tried to get over the fact that you slept with her. But a kid Lucas? I can't get over that. Ever. I have always kept my promises to you. I always knew we were going to be together."
"I did too."
"But you forgot that for one night. And that one night has done so much. It has ruined so much Lucas. Every time I look at you, I see you with her, and that poor kid."
"Maya listen to me. It probably wasn't even mine."
"but it probably was. I see you guys together. Then in my mind it plays this image, of you kissing her. Telling her you love her. When I look at you, it makes me hurt even more. I really did think I had a tolerance for pain until you did this. Just every time, the image comes and it hurts like hell."
"Maya."
I went into hug her and she pushed me off.
"I can't Lucas! You held her with those same arms! You would have held that child with those arms!"
"So what?!? Maya do you not even want to breathe the same air as me?!?"
She was crying so hard shaking her head 'no'.
"Maya how are we supposed to be together if you won't even look at me."
"I....I dont-"
"Maya please don't do this."
More tears.
"Lucas. I....don't think...we-"
"No maya pls."
"I don't think we should be together anymore."
"Maya! Please! I'm sorry!"
She just cried. Sobbed. She wouldn't even move. I went over to her and started kissing/sobbing into her neck.
"Maya please."
I finally reached her lips and she went from still, to pushing me off.
"No lucas! You can't just kiss me, and everything will be OK!"
"Maya it was a mistake! This happened because you went with him. I never wanted you to go to him! I never wanted to not be with you! I never asked for that! I just wanted you to be happy! Maya I realize I messed up badly, but here we are, so are you going to walk through the storm with me or are you going to leave? Maya I did something so stupid, and I wish I could take it back but I can't. I can't see us throwing away something away that is just so good. Maya I love you so much."
Again she was just still sobbing.
"Maya?"
"I think you should go."
"What! No maya, I'm not leaving!"
"Lucas I really think you need to go now."
"Maya, you said that we could walk through any storm together."
"Oh what the hell did I know!"
"Maya, Maya listen to me, we can get through this storm together. I can't imagine my life without you. Without that smile. Without that face. Without that twinkle in your eye. Without your-your heart."
I started to hold on to her and slid down her body until I was on my knees holding onto her.
"No" she cried unlatching my arms from her. "I can't your a totally, different person to me now."
I looked up at her. That twinkle in her eyes was gone. The hope was gone. I wasn't letting go of her, I wasn't giving up.
"I used to think of you as somebody who would never hurt me. Ever. God and now I can't stop picturing you with her. I can't it doesn't matter what you say or what you do Lucas. It has just changed everything. Forever."
She pushed me off of her and we stared at each other for a bit.
"Maya this can't be it."
"Then how come it is?"
"Maya no! I'm not going anywhere! I'm staying right here with you! I'm not leaving!"
"Then I will."
My face softened as she went upstairs and packed 2 bags. One for her and the other for Presley. She came back down and grabbed my hand. She put her engagement ring in my hand. I got it for her a week after she proposed.
"I'm going to get Presley from Riley's and farkles and we are going to find somewhere to stay."
"Maya please don't leave."
"Goodbye Lucas."
"It isn't goodbye with us remember?"
"This time it is."
She grabbed the bags, walked out the door and she left.
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Guys this chapter broke me. I'm crying so hard rn. Listen to some Ed sheeran with this and you most likely will cry. This was a Ross/Rachel breakup but I thought it would fit lucaya. I'm sorry, love you guys!!!
