Notes To You

Note To My Ex

Dear Ex,

I don't even know where to start. There are so many things I could say to you. Make you feel like the piece of shit that you are. But I won't do that. I know you don't know what you've done to me, how everytime someone mentions your name, I cringe because of the memories that you have installed into my heart.

Instead, I'm going to make you realize what you lost.

Over a year ago, I ended things with you because I had feelings for another guy and you weren't moving on with your life. A lot has happened in a year. So I'll catch you up.

I have met the love of my life.

And her name is Me.

Confused? Let me explain.

I loved you because I was a girl who just wanted the movie magic romance. I wanted everything to play out like a John Hughes movie or any of the cheesy rom- com's. That's what I thought I needed. You swooped in at the right time, swept me off my feet and showed me a new world of love and exactly what I wanted. But it wasn't exactly what I wanted.

For me to find exactly what I wanted, I needed to end things with you. Yes, it sucked for a long time. But eventually, I had some amazing people come into my life and show me a new way to live.

Not in fear of who I was, but in confidence.

I told you my fears, my dreams, my goals, and I showed you my world. My world was broken, hurt, and vulnerable.

You came in and broke it some more, but also fixed some parts, and created some new ones. I learned things about myself that I never thought I would know. Like I didn't know that I would fall in love with Marvel, or how someone so tiny can be filled with a world of beliefs. You taught me that I was capable to love someone.

Now, here I am. It took me a while, but I can now go nights without nightmares of you. I know that when the time comes, I'll be ready to fall in love again. This time, with someone who has aspirations, someone taller than 5"9, someone who can handle a marvel movie marathon, and someone who I know that just by the tremble in my voice knows that something isn't right.

You may have fucked me up, but I have never been stronger because of you.

Sincerely,

Was Only Yours

P.S.

I want you to think about or relationship. Not the bad parts and think that I didn't like you because you were short or ugly or whatever. Because you weren't. Well, you are short but that's besides the point. I loved you because I didn't know what love is.

I have found love in myself, my friends, my family, and the world. You taught me to see everything as dark, ugly and depressing, but now here I am, standing with my heart open and waiting for my time to fall in love again. You broke me a lot. There are things you did I will never come back from.

But I wish you all the best in life, and I hope someone can put up with the broken human being you are. Goodbye.