Please save me

Part 16 (discovering more secrets)

(Monday)

Claire's Pov:

Today I'm finally going back to school again after I stayed at home for  a few weeks because of my family problems. I still have nightmares and cut. Yeah, I know I'm supposed to be happy now but my 'family' is still haunting me in my dreams.

I still feel like shit and I still dont eat even though they all tell me to eat because I'm really skinny but who cares? Seth and his mother haven't even noticed how I got even more depressed since I began living here.

I want the to notice but also not notice. I dont know.

(time skip to after school)

Today nothing eventful happened. Seth and Jena walcomed ck with big warm smiles but other than that the day was silent. Too silent. The whole day I was anxious about everyone knowing what my family did to me and whenever I heard something sounding like nothing  name I would flinch.

I heard a loud banging on the door to my new room as I sat on the floor and learned against it with half dried blood on my arms. As soon as last period ended I stormed back 'home' and locked myself in my room and cut my arms open. I had cried for a long time and every one probably heard me but at that moment I didn't care.

The banging on the door got louder so I wiped my tears away and pulled my sleeves down before I unlocked the door and saw Seth

I tried to smile and choked out a "hey"

"you okay" he asked in a concerned voice. I felt bad for letting him know I wasn't.

"yeah" I lied smiling again.

"I heard you c-" he began but cut himself off with a loud gasp and he stared at my covered wrist. I looked down to it and saw blood running down my hand.

"shit " I quietly exclaimed.

"show me your arm" he demanded and pushed my into my room and closed the door behind him. He pushed my onto the bed and pulled my sleeve up before gasping and pulling the other one up too.

A few tears escaped his eyes and slowly traveled down his cheeks before being accompanied by more. They were now streaming down his face in a steady pace. I also began to cry.

His hands gently touched my arms as he carrassed them. He slowly touched my wounds before he brought his face to them and placed his lips an then kissing gently then short. In that moment I began to sob hard and he pulled me into a close hug.

"it's gonna be okay. I can and will help you" he spoke softly and it actually did make me feel better.

"I'm sorry" I sobbed harder and grabbed his shirt crying onto his shoulder.

"how can someone  beautiful and loving harm herself like that? You're so great." he tried to smile at me but failed but it made me chuckle a bit.

"I'm not beautiful. I'm ugly, fat und so stupid. I hate myself. All I think about is making it through another day of not eating and thinking I want to die. I cant do this anymore, Seth. Everything brings me down. Im seriously messed up. Nobody loves me" I cried and grabbed his shirt harder. At this point he was rubbing my back to make me feel secure.

"I love you. I love you just the way you are. And we are all messed up. I love you for who you are and not for your weight. Or how you look. You are pretty and whoever says you're not is an asshole" those were the words that I longed for so long. I didnt know I wanted to hear them but as soon as I had heard then I felt complete.

"I love you too " I smiled and leaned in closer to his face. I placed my lips on his kissing him lovingly and caring.

"thank you so much" I smiled.

Seth Kenedy in for another kiss and this was rougher but still loving and I felt so many things but mostly love and sparks. In that moment I felt seriously happy.

"I'll help you through it. I'm gonna make your life worth living for. I promise. I will never leave you. "

"so.. We're a couple now? "

"hell yeah, we are" he laughed.

The rest of the night we were just lying on my bed and talking until we fell asleep.

Only one part left. In glad but it also kinda makes me sad because I hate ending stories.