Please save me

Part 8 (shopping)

(Saturday)

Claires Pov:

I Woke up at 9:34am taking a shower and quickly making my hair and my makeup.  I put on some converse boots,  a black veil brides shirt and black skinny jeans.

When I was ready it was only 10:40 so I ate an apple and waited infront of the house.

Only a bit later I saw Jena coming towards me.

"Hey" she said

"Hey" I answered.

"Are you ready? " she now stood infront of me

"Yeah.  Let's go" I began to walk

"Why did you ask me to come with you and not Seth? "

"I'm not really friends with Seth and it's the first time I'm going without my sister. "

"Anyway- I'm glad you asked me to go with you" she smiled at me.

"Thank you for coming with me.  I first want to buy clothes and then go change my hair colour"

"Fine"

(At the mall)

"Lets go in there" Jena said

"Sounds good " I said.

After some time I had picked a black skinny jeans, a AC/DC shirt,  and a short black Dress with a red belt around the waist.  Now I only need to go to the hair dresser.

"I'm going to get a new color. Bye" I said wanting to go away

"Wait- I'll go with you. " Jena followed me

"Okay.  I just thought it would be boring for you"

"Its not boring.  It's fun being with you"

"Yeah.  It's fun.  Let's go"

After washing the colored hair I dried my now completly blue hair.

"It's beatiful" Jena said

"Thank you" I blushed a little

"I want to go home now " Jena walked next to me outside of the mall.

"See you on monday then."

"Until monday" we both walked separated ways

I slowly walked towards home noticing that even if I would go home there would be nobody.  What should I do all I day?  I have one and an half day until school.

I changed my direction towards the park.

As I walked there I saw a dark shadow sitting on the swing.  As I walked closer the shadow formed into a boy.  It was Seth.

"Hey" I shyly said as Seth frozen  in shock

"H-hey" he finally was able to say.

"What are you doing here? " I asked sitting on the swing next to him

"Why are you here? " he asked

"You don't answer with a question.  Besides this is on my way home. So why are you sitting here all alone? "

"I often went to parks in with my sister when I was little.  We loved being together.  We were like best friends. " he looked at the sand beneath him.

"I'm sorry"

"What was your sister like? " he asked out of the blue

"how do you know that? "I asked shocked trembling in fear.

"Jena told me. Sorry"

"No I'm sorry.  I shouldn't have reacted like that. My sister..  She was great.  She was only 1 year older but so much more mature.  She was the total opposite of me.  Everyone loved her.  She was beautiful. "

I shortly made a pause sighing

"Nobody expected that Davina would be able to kill herself. Just like her name means she was beloved.  Nobody hated her and she hated nobody except for herself"

"Davina?  That's an unique name"

"My parents thought it would help her get loved.  Seems like it did. But my name didn't help me.  "

"It's beatiful.  It suits you"  she smiled at me

"There's nothing bright or clear about me"

"I think you're bright.  You might not see it but you're bright like a sun for me.  In a good sense.  My name means dazzle.  But I'm not really dazzling right? "

"I don't know. I don't know you good"

"Between.  Nice color. It suits you"

"Thank you"

"If that about you sister is true then is it true that you're a fag? " he asked not caring if he hurt my feelings

"Don't say fag.  And I'm bi" I angrilly said

"So you are able to go out with guys? " he asked

"Yeah? " I said kinda unsure of what was coming next

"Will you go out with me?"  He said and I stood up

"I'm sorry.  I can't. I'm just to messed up"

"I'm messed up too"

"You don't understand" I said running away with tears rolling down my face.  I ran towards my home feeling relieved as I remembered my parents won't be there.

The rest of the week was awkward.  Seth tried to talk to me but I ignored him or walked away.

It was hard but it was soon Friday afternoon and I cleaned up so my parents wouldn't get angry.

From now on  I'll update every Wednesday and Sunday and since I only thought about it today I published it on a Thursday. But don't be mad at me if I dont update on time. Everything's been really hard for me but I try not to let it show.