when you came back

part 16

Spain POV

I gently laid him on the bed, once we arrived to my home. He was unconscious but breathing normally, his skin was scared, scratched, burned, tortured, and most of all touched by a monster.

It was my fault this happened. I was stupid to think that he was safe with Italy, also I admit I cheated on him. I sighed as took a seat beside him and laid my hands over my face. I knew what I was doing, I didn't stop though, at the time I started to lose interest in him, but when he left me I knew that I still loved him deeply and screwed up big time.

I cheated...

-Spain's flashback-

"hola senora, I'm looking for a wedding ring could you help me?"

I smiled cheerfully as I eyed the lady employ, she was so beautiful and flawless but I quickly pushed those thoughts away. She turned to me and smiled as she put her hands together.

"of course I'm here to help you sir, I'm Victoria I'll be your helper of the day. so what type of wedding ring are you looking for~"

Guilt hit me hard in my chest as if I was stabbed. I knew this feeling but I ignored it.

"something simple my lover isn't so fund of diamonds"

She looked at me, confused but took out a plain sliver ring.

"will this do sir?"

I looked at it then thought of Lovino, I frowned slightly and tried to hide it because truth was I was having second thoughts, I'm not ready yet. I looked at her and smiled sadly.

"I don't think I'll be buying one today...but for wasting your time will you like to go out for lunch?"

She looked at me as if she was trying to read my mind but smiled as if knowing already.

"I would love too.. um I never got your name~"

"Oh how silly of me I'm Antonio"

After that we saw each other weekly and then daily. I've been seeing her for three months now behind Lovino's back, I knew what I was doing was uncalled for and wasn't something I wouldn't do but I sadly did.

We meet up at my place when Lovino was out buying supplies out in the town next over, it was was our third month anniversary and I held her close to me as I kissed her and we finally become one in body and soul. I always knew this was wrong but it didn't stop me, we laid under the covers, the same covers Lovino and I would lay under and if he found out he would most likely kill me, heh I would of killed myself to if I was him. We were about to fall asleep when we heard the door close and Lovino calling out for me.

"hey Spain I'm back, the traffic was like shit so I came back home, I might head back next week though. ugh I'm so tired."

We both panicked as we heard him coming up the stairs and I told her to hide in the closet until Lovino had fallen asleep and she did as she was told.

"hey Tony I missed you tomato bastard"

"o-Oh heh hola mi amor~"

Lovino looked at me confused but shrugged and went to bed with me as he wrapped his arms around me and cuddled, quickly passing out. I could feel my heart braking apart, he loved me all this time and was faithful to me but I was a jerk and started to go out with some else behind his back.

She stepped out as she changed quietly and blowed a kiss towards me, I smiled at her as she left then I quickly frowned. I messed up big time and I hated myself so much for it, tomorrow night I will tell her that it's over and hope for the best.

The next night came and I called her over when Lovino went out to buy wine, we meet outside my house as I told her the truth and called it off. She nodded and understood my feelings completely but that didn't stop her from bursting into tears, I held her close to me one more time and the next thing I knew I heard glass shattering, I turned to look and horror filled my face and heart.

Lovino stared at me and Victoria with such a hurt, painful knowing look as his body trembled in fear and knowing truth.

-end of flashback-

I looked at the sleeping Italian sadly, he left me with tears in his eyes before I could say anything. I suspected that he already knew that something was off by the way he looked at me and asked why I was always out, it was so obvious that he pretended that it wasn't happening til the day he saw me hold her, and my world fell apart.

He ignored and shut me out of his life but I couldn't blame him because I hurt him deeply and there was nothing I could do yo fix it.

I held is hand tightly as tears fell down my face.

"i-I'm so sorry...I'm stupid....I knew the dangers but I was an idiot...I'm s-sorry..a-amor.."

I started to sob as I held his hand and laid my head on the bed, I knew he was targeted but I was so stupid and in my greed I lost sight of that...