when you came back

when I take my leave (final)

I held the gun tighter as I stared back at the emerald eyes that smiled at me and accepted their fate. My beautiful and precious dream that was set apart from me become a nightmare haven that controlled my life. Life isn't fair but I was aware of that when I found out that the one I loved cheated on me...

Yet the one I loved was willing to die to fix the mistakes he did to me.

I closed my eyes as I see my life flash by with in seconds and I lower the gun slowly. I looked up, staring at Antonio emotionless but my eyes told a different emotion of frustration and anger.

"you're an idiot you know, you want to die thinking your death will fix all the wrongs in my life but you forget you can't fucking die! You stupid nation!"

I tear up as I speak, feeling my heart clinch in pain, the same feeling when I saw him kissing that girl outside his house that December night.

"I could shoot you but within hours you'll be back! Is that what you want!? you want me to relieve my stress on you!? well I fucking refuse because no matter how much I hate you I can't....I can't hurt you Antonio....but everyone forgets one thing..."

I smile threw my tears that are now rolling down my face as I see the three nations look at me confused.

"No por favor Lovino don't you dare..."

Antiono spoke lowly trying to control his voice from shaking and stuttering as my brother looks at his lover and then at Antonio confused. He should be confused...I never wanted my brother to get involved into this but it's my last resort to fix things.

I look at my brother smiling softly as if I'll reassure him that everything will be ok.

"grazie fratello for everything you did for me, and I know that Ludwig..heh potato bastard will protect and love you...I hope you get the happy ending I never got"

My brother frowns as he cries still not able to understand the situation.

"F-fratello where are you going...don't leave me fratello..!"

Ludwig held him back as he looks away, and as he does I could see the German man actually crying from seeing his lover confused and hurt, unable to tell him what I'm thinking about.

I guess I have no other choice but to show him..

I take a deep breath and I raise the gun again but the only difference this time is that the gun didn't point to Antonio -who stood in shock and unable to move with his eyes wide open in fear and dread- as I put the gun on my head..

"n..no fratello...please...no.."

My heart finally broke seeing my brother plea for me to not do it. The gun shakes in my hand but for the final time I close my eyes as I smile warmly.

"t-ti amo fratello...take care of my fratello Ludwig...make him smile again for me"

I look over to Antiono, as thousands of words come through my mind but all that come out of my lips were the only words I hoped he would remember forever..

"te amo, so will you marry me...?"

The Spaniard finally broke down into tears as he sobbed into his hands not able to speak but nodded.

I made a last prayer and I finally pulled the trigger. Ending my human life...

Italy POV

The horrifying sound of the gun fire, seeing my brothers blood splatter everywhere and finally seeing his dead body collapse on the floor with a thump....his lifeless and cold bloody scene permanently stained my mind.

"N-NO LOVINO NO PLEASE COME BACK!"

I ran over holding my brother lifeless body in my arms as I sobbed, getting his blood on my clothes. I cradled him as I rocked back and forth whispering prayers to send him to a happier place and to get peace that he could never have in life as Ludwig just held me from behind not saying a word....

Antonio POV

Will you marry me?

Will you marry me...

Will you marry....?

His voice echoed over and over again. My body collapsed and I fell to the floor sobbing because I knew that marriage was something he wanted...but I screwed up and got bored with someone who was desperately in love with me. I cheated on him, I raped him, I couldn't protect him...

I cursed myself under my breath as I held my ex lovers hand asking for forgiveness, knowing that I'll never get his answer....

"I..I'll wait for you to be reincarnated.....te amo...and I'll protect you....when you come back"