Its been 6 months since Jimin and I broke up, he's looked like a mess that not even makeup can hide from the camera's ever since. I don't regret what I did.....or at least that's what I tell myself.
I sat myself down at a cafe, waiting for my order to come through, "And name for that order?" the lady asked,
"(Y/N)," I answered with a smile. Sitting down at a table I watched the TV that just happened to be on some celebrity talk show, and just my luck BTS was being interviewed. This brought back memories of the last BTS interview I watched, but I held back the tears.
"Ok, another question from a fan and this one is for Jimin." Oh, those dreaded words....what happened last time.....I balled my hands into a fist as a scowl overtook my features. "Why have you been so down these last months."
Jimin tried to smile, but it was obviously forced and fake, "Well...honestly.....I lost the love of my life 6 months ago. The night of the awards, In an interview I was asked to kiss my date, and I did it because I didn't want to let ARMY down but.....I let my girlfriend down instead. Needless to say, that was the final straw for her and she broke up with me. I deserved it though, she deserves so much better." He said a sad smile on his lips.
"And what was this lovely woman's name?" The interviewer asked.
"(Y/N)." He said right as the barista called out my name for my order.
"(Y/N)???" The whole shop looked at me shocked as I stomped up and collected my coffee.
Right before I walked out the door I turned to the now silent cafe who were all staring at me and spat out, "That pig deserves all the misery that comes his way! Now that he's lost his invisible girlfriend suddenly she means something to him. He's nothing but a lying prick, vying for media attention." before turning on my heal and walking out, anger clearly etched on my face, and clearly displayed in my body language.
Getting back home after work that night, I turned on the TV, and just my luck, the celebrity segment of the news was on.
"Earlier today, one of the 7 members of BTS, Park Jimin, confessed about his depression the past 6 months. Talking about a girlfriend he had been with in secret, and how she had broken up with him due to an interview in which he had to kiss another woman at the award show. Jimin claims that he sent her over the edge, always denying her existence in public and never leaving her house with her. In this interview, however, it was being shown in a the Nunsongi Cafe. An ARMY vlogger was vlogging about her coffee at the time the live interview came on, pausing her vlog to watch, she filmed herself watching on the TV in the venue. After Jimin told of his ex-girlfriends name, a woman of the same name was called up for her drink. Her behaviour leads many to believe that she was the famous idols ex-girlfriend, especially with the words she spoke before storming out."
It then showed the video of what happened, the whole thing! I was extremely annoyed, did I have no privacy now?? After the whole clip, they had some interviews with eyewitnesses but I didn't listen and just turned the TV off. Walking to my bedroom I flopped over on the bed falling asleep, refusing to let the tears fall.
The next day I woke up and got ready for the day, skipping my morning coffee as I didn't wish to go back into the cafe, so instead, I went straight to work, keeping a hoodie on and mask over my mouth so no-one recognised me. I learnt a thing or two from the boys of bangtan.
Walking into my work building I took them off, but I got stared down by every person I walked past. Finally arriving at my office, I sat down at the desk and started on the paperwork I had to do. My boss then walked inside, not even knocking he asked. "Are you Park Jimins ex-girlfriend?" I was shocked at his stern almost angry sounding voice.
"Yes?" I stated, but it came out more as a question, I was confused as to why he cared.
"you're fired. Pack up." My boss or now ex-boss told me before walking out. I was shocked.....what?? I couldn't believe this! All because I was the ex of a celebrity. I quickly yet angrily cleared out my office, taking everything to my car before driving off. I stopped and parked on a street filled with amazing food stalls for some lunch. Getting out of my car with my hoodie and mask on, I walked around browsing at the food. I ate some lunch before deciding I should walk around a bit more. Walking out of the street and down a few others, I soon got to a rather crowded street and why was it crowded. Because of BTS why else?
I had had enough of them! They were everywhere I was! Because he let my name slip yesterday, I had lost my job and privacy! I was going to give Park Jimin a piece of my mind! Pushing through the crowd I made it to the front, much to the dislike of the ARMY. The security guards surrounded BTS, but I was a woman on a mission. Walking up to them one of the guards tried to stop me, I elbowed him in the head, flipped him over onto his back and kicked him in the balls before walking all the way up to BTS. Everyone was staring at me in shock, I stopped right in front of Jimin and wasted no time in slapping him...hard.
I took down my hood and took off my mask looking him directly in the eye. "You ruined my life. Because of you, I've lost my job, my privacy! Because of you, I lost my happiness and more than anything I lost my hope. My hope for us! You're a selfish prick! Do you see me now? Do you see your invisible little ex now?" I asked, frustrated tears collecting in my eyes.
Phones were out and filming as BTS all stared at me, Jimin looked so broken as he looked me in the eyes. "I messed up so bad," he said.
"Aha, no shit Sherlock!" Was my reply, I took a step back from him. "I hope you're happy." I then turned around and started to walk off, but Jimin grabbed my wrist to stop me from leaving.
"Jagi, wait, please." He pleaded, desperation in his voice. I shook my head.
"I waited for you for 4 years. I think that's long enough. I then pulled my hand away from his grasp and kept walking, but the rest of BTS quickly blocked my path which forced me to turn and face Jimin, I crossed my arms over my chest.
"I know I messed up. I know that I was never the ideal boyfriend-" he started but I interrupted, tears leaking from my eyes as I had an outburst.
"You WERE the ideal boyfriend and that's the issue! That's why you broke me! I trusted you with everything! Gave you my first everything! You promised me we'd be together forever! You were so sweet and caring behind closed doors, you were the perfect boyfriend, you were MY perfect boyfriend. But as soon as anyone else could see, as soon as the cameras were on you, I no longer existed. DO YOU REALISE HOW MUCH THAT HURT!?!?!? You were my everything, you ARE my everything! I cant get you out of my head, I can't stop missing the feeling of being curled up on the couch next to you watching a movie, some nights I can't sleep because your not beside me! I feel like I'm going through withdrawal! But I was invisible to you! You are my everything, AND I DIDNT EXIST TO YOU!!!!" I refused to fall to my knees as much as I wanted to.
Something in Jimin's eyes seemed to break more at my words, tears slipped out of his own eyes. "I'm sorry, I'm so so so sorry. I didn't want to lose you, but I didn't want to let anyone down. It's all my fault, its all my fault." he blamed himself, "If id only done what I wanted to do if Id only told people about us! I wouldn't have lost you! I would still be able to call you mine. To come over to your place and talk to you, to be able to make you smile, I would be able to hold you in my arms and never let go. But because of a stupid fear I cant do that!" he was sad, but his voice got stronger and soon enough he spoke firmly, almost yelling as he looked me directly in the eyes with a fire Id never seen before.
"THEN FIX IT!" was my final outburst. He was shocked and stared at me.
"W-what?" he questioned eyes wide and mouth agape. Everyone as silent after this outburst.
"You say that as if you want that relationship again. If you do, then fix it. If you don't then why am I still here? We've both said what we want haven't we?" I asked, conviction in my eyes.
"I don't know how to fix it," Jimin said sadly, looking into my eyes, begging me to give him an answer, a solution. I walked closer to him and kissed his cheek.
"You'll figure it out." I said with a smile, "You always do." then I walked out of the circle of people through the crowd and down the street.
