[COMPLETED] Love Her [Jeon Jungkook FF]

Chapter 13: I can't

Kang Jiwon's P.O.V

It's been two weeks since I came here. Sarang has just been weird to me and when I explained about my memory loss, she understood immediately. But she told me something about my boyfriend. She said that I know him, he's near me. Which doesn't make any sense, right? How could I know him? He disappeared from my life.

"Ms. Kang! Quickly! You have 39, 38, 37 seconds!" My sunbae yelled. I ran with my makeup stuff in my hands and pockets to Jungkook. They need to be on stage in 30 seconds. I put some powder on his nose, forehead and cheeks and corrected his eyebrows.

"Okay, you're ready." I said. It took me 16 seconds exactly to finish his makeup.

"Gomawoyo Jiwon." He said and smiled that cute little bunny smile. God, that makes my heart flutter. He ran with the other members to the stage and I was left there to wait for them to come back.

"Jiwon!" I heard someone calling my name. I turned around and saw Sarang waving at me.

"Sarang! What're you doing here?" I asked and hugged her tightly.

"To see Jungkook of course!" She said as if it was obvious, which it was.

"Guess what, I made a new record of doing Jungkook's makeup!" I said excitedly.

"Jinjja? how long did it take you?" She asked.

"16 seconds." I said proudly.

"Woah, daebak! But how's Jungkook doing? I heard he had a killer schedule today so I decided to visit him."

"He's actually doing really good. He's been doing stuff since 4 a.m." I said.

"Huh?! He woke up that early?!" Sarang asked shocked.

"Eo. But he's fine, don't worry!" I said and patted her back.

We waited for about a half an hour before the members came backstage again. They all were sweating. I grabbed my cold towel and went to Jungkook. I gently patted the towel on his forehead.

"Gwaenchanha?" I asked.

"Ne, we're finally done!" He said smiling.

"That's good news. It's already 9 p.m." I said and started packing my stuff.

"Oppa!!!!" I heard Sarang screaming and I saw her jumping to Jungkook. Jungkook caught her and hugged her tightly. Why do I feel like I should be in Sarang's place? And that reminds me, Jungkook feels weirdly familiar to me. Like he's been with me a long long time. Then Sarang waved her hand in front of me and I woke up from my thoughts.

"Are you okay?" She asked. I nodded and smiled at her.

We arrived at the dorm and I went straight to my room. I took my phone out of my pocket and saw an email. I opened the notification and started reading it.

To: Kang Jiwon

From: xxxxxxxxx

Annyeonghaseyo Ms. Kang,

I was finally able to get you an apartment near the dorm. I know, it took longer than it was supposed to. You're going to move in tomorrow. The address is xxxxxxxxxxxx. I hope you like the apartment I chose you:)

Finally! I can finally live alone again! I've been waiting forever! I went to the living room to tell the news to the guys. But I didn't find the others. What's this? Where the hell are they? I opened KakaoTalk on my phone and typed a message to Jimin.

Yah!

Where are you guys?

What do you mean?🤔

We're in the practice rooms.

What??!!

Why are you guys still practicing?!😡

It's past 10 p.m.!!!😤

🙄

We know

But we're idols

This is what we do😛

Haven't you noticed?

Btw

Jungkook should be there

He left half an hour ago

Huh? He's here????

I put my phone away and started walking around the dorm. Where could he be? I walked into his room but I didn't see him. Maybe he hasn't arrived yet. He probably went to see Sarang or something like that. I went back to my room and started to watch my new favorite K-Drama 'Meloholic'. Ahh, Yunho is so hot!!🔥

After watching a couple of minutes I heard a sound. It sounded like someone opened the front door. I put my laptop away and started walking towards my door. I put my hand on the doorknob. Then I heard something. It sounded like..... Someone kissed someone. I probably heard wrong. He's here alone, right? But then I heard something again. This time it was a couple of quiet moans. No... I'm hearing things. I decided to open the door after a couple of minutes of listening. I walked really slowly and carefully to the living room. But I stopped. I froze. I kept staring at what I just saw. I saw Jungkook and Sarang. Lying on the couch. On top of each other. Jungkook was topless. Sarang had only her underwear on. They froze too when they saw me. And somehow this seems really familiar. Then my head started to hurt.

"Ahh!!!" I yelled and got on my knees.

"Jiwon!" I heard Jungkook yelling but I saw how Sarang stopped him. She motioned him to not move. Then something happened. I remembered. I remember fucking everything. I rose my gaze to him.

"You son of a bitch." I said calmly. I saw how shocked his expression was.

"J-Jiwon, why are you angry? You know we are dating." Jungkook said.

"And I know we used to date." I said. His face went pale. I turned around slowly. Why didn't I remember him earlier? Why did I let Sarang do such things? To m-my Jungkook. I broke into tears when I entered my room. The feels hit me really hard. It hurt. It hurt so much. I leaned against the door and cried on my knees. I could taste my tears. But I kept my crying silent. No one can know about this. Ever. I don't have any feelings for him anymore. I can't have any feelings for him anymore. He's the same as dead to me now. I should probably quit my job. But I can't do it now, my boss just got me an apartment. I need to endure the pain for a little while. You can do this Jiwon! I need to start job hunting, maybe some other idol group needs a makeup artist. I took my phone out of my pocket and started to look at the screen, but I didn't see a thing. My tears were still flowing. Dammit! I punched the ground. I couldn't hold back my sound, I started crying loudly. I heard someone walking on the other side of the door. Then someone knocked.

"Jiwon... I'm sorry." I hear Jungkook's voice.

"GO AWAY, YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" I yelled.

"Jiwon, please, let me talk to you." He said in a really calm voice.

"NO!!! GO AWAY!!!" I yelled.

"Please.... I just want to talk to you." He said. But his voice was different. He was crying. He has no right to cry.

I don't know why I did it, but I opened the door. He was crying like a baby. I wanted to hug him, but I can't. I want to say I didn't mean to say such harsh words, but I can't. I want to kiss him, but I can't. I want to make him mine, but I can't.

I want to love him, but I can't.