Unbeliveable

What do you mean?

|Adrian's POV|

What did she mean by that?

What did she mean when she said that I need to "commit" to one person?

How do you do that?

I've been skipping from girl to girl for most of my school life and that's all I do. I can't decide which girl I like the most. I see a new girl and I think she's pretty and I want to "be" with her. Then a few days later it's on to the next girl all because I get used to her and then I get bored and want a new girl. I'm like a little kid in a toy store who can't pick a toy to buy.

My mom days it's "immoral" and I think she's right. I feel like I know what that means, but I'm not too sure what it means. I'll look that up later.

I'm bad at deciding. I don't exactly know what it means to "commit" and I also think it would be kind of hard to do.

Maybe I should single out every girl I have dated and decide which one I liked being with the most.

I think that Erica is kind of cute. But I haven't dated her yet. I don't know what she likes and don't like. She seems so shy in class. I want to talk to het, but the look on her face when she looks all shy is so...... cute? She also has an angry face in most classes. That's also cute. Kind of. She's pretty scary when she's angry.

It's hot. I like dominate girls.

I also think she can be really cute.

One time in class, our biology teacher Mr. Hart picked on her to come up to the class so that he can show us the difference in size of the intestines between a short person and a tall person. She was so red. It was adorable. She kind of giggled when Mr. Hart traced his finger around on Erica's stomach.

She makes me question my life choices. She makes me want to change the way I go through girls. I've never actually questioned anything about my self before, I mean why would I?

But I don't feel like I can change because, well what I've been doing since the 8th grade and it's what I'm used to.

But Erica is different. She doesn't look like one of those girls you'd hook up with just to hook up with. She looks like someone I'd want to be with for as long as time goes on.

I feel something kind of weird when I look at her.

I don't feel like I want to bang her but I want.....to cuddle her? I also feel like behind her painful hostile glare is a cute and squishy little girl that wants and needs someone she can love.

She's so small and delicate. Like she could break if I look at her wrong. But them again I've heard her threaten to kick tall people in the shins because they are too slow in the hsllway, so I guess she doesn't need you much protecting from me.

I can't help but melt when I remember how small she is. It's totally adorable. And she also kind of reminds me of a little kitten. I also think it's cute how she looks at me. She looks at me like no one else. Erica doesn't glare at me. She doesn't look at me like she's overly annoyed with me. She she does sometimes but when she does I always make her laugh. She looks at me like she knows every little secret about me and that she's reassuring me that she won't tell. She looks at me with great big innocent eyes that make me feel bad from taking her out of her lite world of daydreams. I can tell that she has some sort of small attraction to me. But she doesn't know it yet.

I can't get over how adorable she is. All the other girls I've been with have all been at least 4 or 5 inches away from being as tall as me. But the top of Erica's head stops at the top of my stomach. She's so cute I could go on forever about how cute she is.

What woah what the hell am I thinking??!?

I already have a girlfriend. What was her name again? Becky, Beth, Becca? Does it even start with a B? G? C?

Who cares she's hot and she's willing to do whatever where ever. It's totally hot.

I bet Erica doesn't do things like that.

She looks so pure and innocent and lovable and perfect.............

God damn!! Not again!!

Does this "commitment" thing have anything it do with love? Because I think I'm in "love".

Crap, I think I'm screwed.

I want to love Erica like no one has ever loved her before but I want to have someone to bang with whenever I want. But I know that that's what my mom and everyone else in the universe calls immoral. I think that's why Erica looks at me in disgust so often.

She's disgusted with me. I'm a horrible person. All because I can't decide. I'm going to change. I'm going to get to know Erica and I will get her to love me just as much as I love her.

Yeah, I really do love her. And that's the truth.