My red string.

Chapter one: Before going.

HER.
It was almost the end of summer and with that in mind, I knew the days together were coming to its end. As every Wednesday and Friday, we went to our favourite sushi restaurant after going to beach and do some surf.
-Nicole, are you okey? You didn't even end your sushi today.
-Yes Nathan, I am. Is just that I'm tired.
-I know you're not Nico, tell me what's going on.
He told as he came close to me. I could never lie to him.
-Well, I've been thinking a lot about the ending of vacations. You know what does that means.
I didn't want to be so obvious about why I was acting like that and that the reason was him.
-What do you refer? Are you talking about coming back to school little nerd? You know you don't have to worry about it, you're such a genius and have everything calculated.
Thanks to God, in that moment I didn't have to answer that question because my mom called and told me it was time to go home.
-Sorry Nathan, I have to leave now. See you on Friday?
-Oh okey, Nico. Text me when you're home. Take care.
-Yes, thanks. You too.
I really don't know if he was acting like he didn't know or literally he didn't know why I was like that.
HIM
Nicole and I have been friends since we were on eight grade. We spend a lot of time together and we share a lot of our favourite things and hobbies. Any friendship or relationship that I had can't compare to the connection I feel with her. We can trust and count on each other without doubting. Even though, the last days she was acting kind of weird with me and I didn't know the reason. She was trying to hide her feeling or I don't know. Every time I asked what was going on she changed the conversation and started talking about something else. Is like she didn't want to tell me. I was starting to feeling worried. I don't know if she doesn't remember that is almost the date that I will leave. I really want to enjoy our last days together but with her attitude, is imposible. It's necessary for me to talk with her. I can't be one hundred percent alright if I'm not alright with her.
HER
Maybe I didn't want to accept the idea of being separated. The thing that we weren't a couple or more than friends, has always been present to me, but I just don't know. I haven't felt anything like this with anyone before. Is like if we were connected or something. And realising that I won't see him in such a long time is so hard for me. I don't think I could make it.
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Friday came and I knew that Nathan wouldn't lose the opportunity to ask again what was going on and why I was acting strange with him. Of course this time I can't deny anything.

HIM
Before going to eat sushi (as always) I decided to ask Nicole why she was acting like that with me. I wanted to let her know that I couldn't resist anymore. Those were going to be the last days together for a long time. I needed them to be more than awesome.
-So Nico, you know I've been asking you a lot why you were acting like this lately and you always tell that nothing is happening or change the conversation and I can't with it no more. You know that you're so important to me and being with you like this makes me sad and makes me feel worried. I want to spend these days like no others. So please tell me, what is wrong?
I couldn't believe that I said all those words without stammering.
-I'm sorry for acting like this and didn't tell you the reason, but is hard for me to talk about it. I hoped you figured out and stop asking what was going on but I guess that didn't happen.
-Mm I guess so too. But tell me, you know you can trust me.
-Okey listen, you know that is almost time for you to leave and go to another country far far from here. Perhaps you think that I'm just a little bit sad and that's all, but these days have been horrible for me. I've tried to make me the idea of you leaving and I've tried to enjoy the few days that we have but it is imposible having in my mind the image of you leaving and not being around me like always. And I didn't want to tell you because I know you're capable of changing your mind and I don't want that. I don't want you to feel guilty. I want you to approach this great and amazing opportunity because you deserve it.
We spent all the walk to the restaurant and all the time at the restaurant talking about it. It was something that we had to resolved so we both could feel more comfortable with this difficult-amazing time. I was happy because she told me finally why she was acting the way she was doing but at the same time I was sad. The opportunity of having a scholarship in another country is one in a million and I was being blessed to have it and of course I was totally grateful for it and I knew that I was going to enjoy it but also, I couldn't help to think that I was going to "leave" my other half. Nicole was that person that I could look for in everything that I need and spend good time with. I was going to miss her for sure and I was grateful too for having her because even though I was leaving, everyone knows that our connection won't never disappear. We are always going to be connected by heart or in some way that only God knows how. We make a promise that we would always be in contact and I hope nothing changes, I need to be know how her life is going and how she is so being away won't be so hard for me.