My red string.

Chapter 4: Moving on?

HER
I spent my holidays on a different but good way. As time passed, I was clearing up my mind. I realised that even Nathan was a great, the kind of friendship that we had wasn't as amazing as I thought in the past. Now I was starting to see why many people told us that we looked as a couple because that was true but we were the only blind ones. The fact of noticing that make me decide to really start giving him the place in my life like a friend and nothing more. Girls and boys can have wonderful friendships but what we were having wasn't a friendship and it was time to change that.
During the holidays, I met Chad. We had friends in common and they introduced us. When I first saw him, he called my attention. He was tall, he had curly hair and a pair of perfect light brown eyes that caught me. If I believed in love at first sight, meeting him could be the prove. We talked a lot when met and we found out that we have a lot of things in common apart from our friends. He invited me another times to go to cafés and I was starting to liking him. I guess I was liking the idea that an amazing someone liked me and he acted like nothing else but that, making sure I knew about his feelings. I liked the fact of not being confused about another person feelings'.

HIM
Some friends of mine started to tell that Nicole was dating a new guy. They saw her a couple times with him. That she seemed happy than ever. It was hard for me to here. Perhaps I would sound selfish but, how can she looks better than ever when having me more aparte than ever? I wish I could be happy for her but I couldn't. I couldn't help but feeling jealously. She was like nothing and with another guy next to her. I only begged that him knows Nicole was unique in this world.
I am going to start school in a week and I hope to stop thinking about this situation of it will not only affect my sleep but my grades and everything in my life at the end.

END OF WINTER BREAK
HIM
I decided to block Nicole from all the social media. I want to be happy for her. She deserves all the great things in the world and I hope she has it but I can't keep living like this. I should take care of myself and take her away of my thoughts and I guess this was the only way. In fact she was dating officially this new guy my friends told about.
We didn't talk since New Year. I called her to wish her the best and since that I all I have known about here, has been for other people and I think that was the thing that hurt me the most. She wasn't only living her life perfectly. She was kicking me out and all I did was being worried and suffering so I needed to understand her. She didn't want in her life anymore and I needed to respect because all the love that I have for her.
I sent her a letter writing the next:
Dear Nicole:
You know how special you are. You have been my best friend for a long time now. I think I have always been there for you and viceversa. We know each other and we do love each other. For what I said before I think it isn't necessary to say that I know for your actions that you are okey with the fact of not knowing about me even though our promises were others.
Because I appreciate you, I respect that. I'm leaving you alone. Don't be worried or mad at me for this. I know this is what you want and maybe what we need. Don't try to contact me, I thought it well and I want to be like you. I don't want to know about you and be perfectly alright with that. I wish you the best. I hope everything in your life is quite fine. Including your new partner. You deserve the best! Thanks for all the great times and the great bf that you lend me the last years. Bye my Nico.