Mystic Messenger One Shots

Loneliness

Jumin_Han_615 : Loaded

Opening...

The feeling of death itself was looming in the room, waiting for him to make his move. The stress. The meetings. The loneliness. The choice to end it all was his, and that weight made it even worse.

I could leave it all behind. Be free from this torture. All I need to do is slip my head through and jump. Or should I make it look more like an accident? How am I going to do that? Get drunk and try to drive to a far away land?

These thoughts rushed through his head with no sign if stopping. He finally built up his courage and grasped the rope and moved his face closer to the hole.

"Mr. Han, I finally got those papers to fax-" She had caught him in the act. Her face turned pale. Her heart was beating rapidly. "M-mr. Han!" She exclaimed, rushing over to her boss to comfort him.

"Oh, Ms. (Y/n), I thought you had already left." His voice came out shaky, as if you scared him. He was also avoiding eye contact.

Before you thought of something to say, Jumin was already back to his desk, pouring a glass of wine. The awkward silence was unsettling. You felt like you should leave. Let him be alone. But you also knew that right now, isn't the best time for for that.

"Did you really want to?" Your voice seemed to echo down the hallway. Jumin spun around to face you, but still wasn't brave enough to look you in the eyes.

"I don't know."

His voice came out deeper than usual. Scary almost. Thou you still felt only compassion and sorrow towards him.

He finally took a sip out of his glass, then shook his head while setting it back on his desk. Inhaling deeply, he jammed his hands in his pockets and looked at the ceiling. "I honestly don't know." Tears stung at the corners of his eyes.

A sudden feeling around his abdomen made him look down. You had wrapped your arms around him,
before you even thought about it. "I wish I could be more helpful..." You manage to say, because even you were in the verge of crying.

Jumin was confused. Nobody had really shown him affection like this before. When this thought entered his head, he felt a single tear run down his face. Then another one. And one more shortly after that. He realized that he was crying. Hesitantly, he returned the embrace with another.

His sudden hug had scared you. You weren't expecting him to return the embrace. He buried his face in the crook of your neck, and you could feel him start to tremble. You could also feel the knot in your throat get tighter when you felt your shoulder get slightly wet. He was now, sobbing silently.

"Its okay, just let it all out," you manage to say without crying. His embrace on you got suddenly tighter.

Eventually, his sniffles stopped, but he still had you in a tight hug.

"No one has shown me that much care and affection in my whole life. The only person who showed me affection was Elizabeth the 3rd." He whispers softly into your ear.