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19: switched feelings

Jimin POV

• The next nights were calm and mellow. Nothing really happened. I wasn't bored, though, always being caught up in my dark thoughts and fake smile to strangers who began to question me. They must've sensed my sanity levels.

I was blocking my feelings out, becoming more numb each day. Jungkook didn't text me, but he wasn't the problem anymore. Not to be confused with me moving on; that hasn't happened.

It was my mum, my grandpa, my dad. My family wasn't a family. It never was. It was just us as actors, playing our roles. Faking it. Pretending to be something we're not.

School was okay. I finished my assignments. Minnie always helped.

Come to think of it, she was the one comforting me every day when I cried. Her scent wafted into my nose, calming me, making me smile. It was just her. Always her. Nothing new. And that was good.

The only thing was, I didn't do anything to help her. So, I texted her. •

mochi🍡:where r u?
mochi🍡: I'm sorry I havent been thanking you for being here, for helping me.
mochi🍡: because of you, I'm getting better.
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Unknown Number: hey
Unknown Number: its me,

jungkook
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me: ...
me: but this is iMessage...
me: how did you get my number?
Unknown Number: your friend, minnie
Unknown Number: sorry if youre mad..
me: mad?
me: really. mad?
me: I'm beyond mad, Jungkook.
me: now youre all apologetic
me: now.
me: OUT OF ALL THE FUCKING TIMES, NOW
me: WEEKS AFTER MOM DIED, MY DAD.
me: WHAT ARE YOU THINKING??
me: YOU DONT FUCKING CARE, DONT SAY YOU DO
Unknown Number: Jimin, please.
me: NO. YOU HAVE NOTHING TO EXPLAIN.
Unknown Number: I actually do.
Unknown Number: and dont fucking interrupt.
Unknown Number: I have my fucking rights, too.
Unknown Number: anyways, I think I'm straight.
Unknown Number: but i dont know
Unknown Number: I mean I have been thinking this all my life,
Unknown Number: "what if I'm gay?" and "how do I know?"
Unknown Number: when I fell in love with a girl, those thoughts stopped
Unknown Number: but when I met you,
Unknown Number: I was like: "damn he's handsome"
Unknown Number: but I pushed it away.
Unknown Number: I dont know anymore.
Unknown Number: its just
Unknown Number: you're funny, weird, and handsome. you like memes, god, you are one.
Unknown Number: so then I was like "maybe we're just really good friends. he's pretty cool, so..."
Unknown Number: but when you said you loved me...
Unknown Number: can I come over?
Unknown Number: its better to speak in person
mochi🍡:...

mochi🍡: yes, but only to give an actual explanation.
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