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If you don't want to hear me rant about my worthless life you don't have to read this.

Damn lately I've been more depressed than usual. All I do is lay in bed all day. I need to become more active.

Thanksgiving was fucking awful. My mom made me go to her new boyfriends house and it turns out that he is the big brother of the girl that used to bully me. Then I wake up this morning and my mom and brothers put up the Christmas tree without me and they also went to I hop. They didn't even try to wake me up.

My friend who I told everything also stopped talking to me. And my grandma has started hating me and I don't even know what I am doing to her.

All my grades are failing and I'm probably not going to pass. I tried telling my mom about me feeling depressed but she thought that I was talking about my grades and told me I need to be smarter. Then she calls my dad who doesn't give a fuck about me and tells him about my grades and just wants to talk to my brother and not me.

I feel so worthless right now and this was the only place I could think of to get this out of my system and I don't care if you think I'm trying to get attention because I'm not. I hate when people say I'm doing stuff for attention. I told my other friend about me cutting and she said I'm doing it for attention.

I just want to die.