Dying in Vain

Rap I wrote ages ago but was scared to publish

I know I'm not the best
I'm sorry I'm the worst
It's what a human does
Trips me up like dirt
I know I am mad
I know I am crazy
But please don't judge me
Unless you know me

You see I'm dying
Here lying on this floor
Cos no one seems to
Notice how I've stopped
Moving
How I've stopped grooving
I'm a teenager
I know
I have a life to live
I know
But you don't seem to care
Your pushing me in the dirt
You don't seem to think
That I'm losing my own head
Now do you

So think before you act
Listen before you talk
I know things can make you feel so insecure
But believe me
Things are not always what they seem

You see I'm losing my own mind
Because the things you used to say
You pulled me down
Pushed me around
When I was down
And now I'm insecure

What can I do
Whenever I close my eyes all I think is you
All I see fears streaming as tears
Down my face
Watching me misplace things
I used to cherish
Watching the girl I used to be disappear
And its not fair

And now I'm stuck in darkness
Filled with starkness
Just darkness
No light to be seen
In my plight of my life

So think before you act
Listen before you talk
I know things can make you feel so insecure
But believe me things are not always as they seem

Like me I was a girl
Cherry and bright
Happy and cheerful
Like a bird about to fly for the first time
As I got older
Thinga got colder
Words got bitter
Good things seemed to flitter
My life became a mess in my teenage years
Getting depressed
Leaving school at the age of 17
No one to see
She was a bright one
But she let the words bring her down
And her face started to show a constant frown
Now
Do you see how your words affected me
Because clearly
You need to see to believe

You see
So think before you act
Listen before you talk
I know things can make you feel so insecure
But believe me things are not always as they seem.

Thankyou.