Because I'm A Fool

Chapter 3

~Jeremy's POV~

This can't possibly be! There is no way! I slammed my face into my pillow. Just then I heard a knock on the door. I lifted my head and said, "It's open. Come in." I slammed my face back into the pillow as my door opened. I heard footsteps coming towards me. I lifted my head and looked to see who it was. It was Shin-woo. Just the person I didn't want to see. He's the reason why I'm so confused. He was carrying two mugs of tea. He came over and sat on my bed beside me. I sat up correctly, scooting as far away from him as possible.

"I brought you some tea."He said as he handed me a mug, "The other's have gone to bed." 

I grabbed the mug from him being careful not to touch his hand or fingers. He looked a little troubled. He must not have been able to sleep either. I wonder what's wrong with him. He looked at me and I automatically dropped my gaze. He would not approve of me being his friend if he knew why I was avoiding him. He let out a sigh or frustration and said, "What did I do to deserve this, Jeremy? At least tell me that."

I didn't realize I was upsetting him. That's the last thing I want to do is hurt or upset him. But, I also don't want to tell him why I'm acting this way. I set my mug of tea down on my nightstand and continued to avoid eye contact. Shin-woo frowned and stood up, "You know what. Don't tell me."

He was about to leave when I grabbed his wrist. I could feel my cheeks getting hot when he turned around and looked at me. "I have a crush on my friend."I started not knowing how to continue the explanation without giving away what was really going on. Shin-woo sat back down and took a sip of his tea. He was studying my facial expression and motions for me to continue. 

"I like my one friend. But, my one friend may not approve of my feelings."I said as I avoided eye contact, "I'm confused with these feelings. I don't know whether to tell my friend or not." Shin-woo put his hand on my shoulder and smiled, "If it was me. I'd tell her how I felt." Then he took another sip of his tea, "It's not good to stress yourself over this. She should understand."

Every time he said 'she' it felt like someone kicked me in the gut. It's not a 'she' its you. I have feelings for you, Shin-woo. I don't know why? You're always on my mind no matter what I'm doing. To see you suffering would truly tear me apart. Just you being here right now talking to me makes me happy. But, you'll never know because I will just lock these feelings away to keep from upsetting you. 

All of a sudden Shin-woo hugged me. I could feel my face getting hot and my heart began to beat faster. I pushed him away and scooted even farther away from him. He looked completely confused at my actions. I reached for my tea off the nightstand and took a sip of it and said, "I think I might be coming down with something. I don't want to give it to you."

He didn't look like he believed me but shrugged it off, "Well I'm gonna try to get some sleep since we have a photo shoot tomorrow. Hope you solve your problem." Then he got up and left, closing the door behind him. Let out frustrated groan as I stretched out on my bed. Jolie came over and jumped on the bed beside me. I wrapped my arms around her, "Jolie, why does feelings always have to be the most difficult to keep hidden. I wish I could just tell him. But, he'd probably get upset."