Give me a reason (a sherlock fanfiction)

Giving up

Chapter 16

Sherlocks pov

Hours. Days. Weeks. Months.

I can't recall how long I have been leaning against this door mumbling "john". All I knew is that I haven't eaten, slept, or even thought since John left. He was my everything and I am nothing without him. I few people have come by in a desperate attempt to make me move but nothing works. I know their there but my brain won't process it.

John was my high and now I'm on a permanent low. I knew what I had to do. I slowly stood up for the first time in god knows how long and quietly walked to the bath room. I didn't want mrs Hudson to know I was up but then again, why should I care.

I opened the cupboard to find that as i suspected, John forgot to take his pain killers and anti depressant. Oooo I have a choice this just got interesting. I decided to use the pain killers to numb the broken pain inside my heart. I dumped the remnants of the bottle into my hand and swallowed it all in a gulp. I walked over to Johns chair and hugged his Union Jack pillow. This would be a good place to die.

Mrs Hudson pov

I left sherlock alone when I heard him walking around upstairs. It soon became quiet but then I heard a loud THUD. I walked upstairs as fast as my hip could take me and entered the flat. I found Sherlock collapsed on the floor with Johns Union Jack pillow. I quickly tried to find a pulse, and there was one but just barely. I had to call an ambulance and as I did so, words escaped sherlocks lips.

"I love you John."

And I watched the light slowly start to fade out of his eyes

This could not happen. One of my boys left and the other is on the floor dying. I soon broke into tears as I waited for the ambulance.

"Sherlock. Sherlock stay with me love. "

"Mummy?" Sherlock replied in a weak, not so aware voice. "Are you my mummy?"

"No sweety, I'm not. What have you done"

Now he looked up at me with his puppy dog eyes and realized he must have tried to overdoes. His usual ocean eyes where just a tint of grey that his eyes turn to when he dose drugs

"Mummy, why did my john leave?"

"I don't know love. " I replied even though I did know. Surprisingly I sided with john on this debate even though I hated to see then apart.

"I love you mummy" sherlock replied as the ambulance arrived. They took my sweet boy away and left me to get my own ride. Rude. But I do hope sherlock will be okay.