Put me in the mood
To love myself again.
The kid that walked home alone
Had said.
It was wrong to love GUYS
Well, how come I dream about them?
When I dance, I act goofy.
And underneath, if you were to uncover
All the simple values that sum up to me
You'd realize I'm not classy
And I'm not trying to be.
I asked my mother the other day
Why I'm always sad.
She tells me I'm really mad
But I don't think that's it!
Ive had worst things thrown in my face.
If behind the smiling was visible
You'd see I'm always sort of pretending.
Because I hurt
- Like everyone else I may add.
I wish you were able to see the real me
I don't even know what it looks like anymore
I've kept my emotions clean.
I think of myself as an innovator
As Michelle once said,
I'm ready for the Something
To shake me
Rid me of all these tumultuous thoughts
And don't call me silly!
I used to not be able to trust my feelings
Because they always felt wrong.
No one else ever agreed
Not even the one who started her sophomore year getting close to me.
I know now it was the best for me
At Panera bread, I talked with someone I looked up to.
She was full of angst and conflicts.
And after reading this ridiculous child's book
I've found some hope in me
It's okay to be this way.
I must be doing something right
I have incredible people to inspire me.
And even though their taste in music isn't thrilling
It's been a good mix,
Letting me by has been the nicest thing.
When in the feeling of love
I make sure to never say too much.
This has always been an issue for me
Because I just can't trust
Everyone.
Some people know how to get me.
I become vulnerable in the worst of times
It's trivial and admits principals.
But to be honest I'm an open book.
The twist is people just aren't looking close enough
And I know.
I stutter and turn red in front of new.
I'm not brave.
Just know we're all going to the grave
But for now we have a chance to speak up and appreciate
And I'm cool with that.
So if you see me hyperventilating
Let it be
It'll pass.
I only do it when there's really no need
No need to worry
I'm still growing.
