Monotone

Monotone [1]

Chapter one - Who Cares
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Unwanted

Unloved

Not enough

That's just the beginning of what it's like everyday. But who cares anyways. I'm just a nobody in this world trying to disappear. But again, who cares.

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6:47am - Monday morning

The bright morning light from the uncovered window hit my eyelids as my phone buzzed repeatedly in a never ending loop.

I maneuvered my body swiftly to swipe the screen just enough to make the buzzing subside.

Sighing I got out of bed in a calm and quiet manner. My room was clean and organized, my desk was clear. My wooden floors were polished to perfection and my bed was absolutely gorgeous. But who cares.

I picked an outfit out of my once colorful closet, now it holds the remnants of someone who used to try on thirty outfits before deciding on the first choice every day, someone who chose between heels and flats everyday, someone who used to care. Not that I would know.

After choosing an outfit of ripped jeans, a black T-shirt, and my black vans I was ready to start the morning. I brushed my long brown hair, sprits some perfume on, brushed my teeth and grabbed my bag and started for the door.

"Ahem"

Yikes, this won't be good. I turn around to see a very aggravated woman.

"No good morning Mom, have a good day Mom, I love you Mom?"

"Ah yeah- forgot bout that" I cough a little and scratch the back of my head.

"I'll see you later mom"

I only get a stern and agitated look in return.

"Love you"

"That's better, love you darling" she kisses my forehead and walks off into another room with light steps across the carpet.

I grab my keys off the wall hook and head for my car, I had a Jeep but it didn't really matter what kind of car I had as long as I didn't have to take the bus. I started the engine and backed out my my driveway. I continued driving down the street, not slow but not fast.

Pulling up to the high school and taking a parking spot at the very end of the lot I parked the car. I sat in the car for a little after I stopped the engine.

I grabbed my bag and walked towards the school, no one notices me as I walk through the busy parking lot, but I don't mind. I don't really care about anyone, including myself.

I stop by my locker to grab some stuff for my classes. I listen to the chatting of people as I walk through the halls. The slamming of lockers and the stomping of feet as people move about and do whatever. Who cares.

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12:24pm - Monday afternoon

I stop by my locker before lunch and I head for the doors of the school, no way in hell was I going into the place you call the cafeteria. I walk around the school untill I reach the side with high windows, and a Willow tree that is currently dying. But it's whatever.

I sit against the wall and tilt my head up to the sky. I feel nothing. Until I get hit in the head with something.

"Oh shit I'm sorry!" Worry lacing the voice of whomever it is who just hit me in the head.

I turn my head to the direction of the voice, I see a soccer ball and a boy.

"I'm so sorry, are you okay?"

"Yeah. I'm fine." My voice is monotone as I've say those two words for what feels like the millionth time.

"Are you sure?" It's not like he really cares or anything, right.

"Yes I'm fine, now go back to whatever it was you were doing" but instead of him listening to what I said and leaving, he walked closer and sat against the wall approximately 3 feet away from me.

"Why are you still here?" I just came out here for some peace. Now I've been dealt a boy sitting against the wall 3 feet away.

"I wasn't doing anything, were you?"

"I was looking at the sky, so apparently I was" I leave no trace of any emotion in my voice.

Silence is left between us, I tilt my head back to the sky and watch as the clouds come and leave just as I wish I could do.

"I'm Kai"

"That's cool" I reply still watching the clouds pass.

"Oh-and who might you be?"

"It doesn't matter" I state as I push myself off the ground. Lunch is almost over so I have to get going, but I guess it doesn't matter.

"It was nice meeting you and all Kai, but if you knew who I was you wouldn't talk to me again, but lunch is over so I'll see you around." I stated blandly, I took a few steps away before I heard him get up and walk the other way.

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2:12pm - Monday afternoon

After being dismissed from our last class I wander the hall until I reach a door. A very familiar door that I have opened over ten dozen times. I gaze over at the sign.

Guidance Counselor - 134

I take the silver handle in my hand and open the door. I didn't have a choice, I have to open this door every day, I have to read the sign everyday, I have to sit in the chair and wait everyday. But who cares, I have nothing better to do with my life.

I walk into the fairly sized room, it had two other doors and two chairs outside each door. I read the signs.

Mr. Sangler

Mrs. Maline

Personally I wasn't a fan of either counselors but I really don't care at this point. I slowly and quietly move to sit in a chair outside of Mr. Sangler's room. There is most likely someone in there, but it doesn't matter.

After waiting about 8 minutes, I heard the handle click and the door is pulled open, out steps a boy. Not just a boy though, it's that Kai kid I met earlier.

He seems surprised to see me sitting there waiting, I stand as he walks through the door way. He opens his mouth to say something but before he can I'm already in the office and closing the door.

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Hey I'm sorry about not ever finishing my stories, I will work on them when I can. I know I don't read these things so it doesn't really matter that I'm writing this.