•~BottomHoseok Oneshot~•

•i'm sorry• pt1

{Before you read... Just know that I love J-hope so much, he's literally my blood, sweat and tears...also I'm bored and cold..here's another chapter} 

•no specific Ship• (OT7 maybe...I said maybe okay) 

•description•

•J-hope is getting more and more famous and... More haters•

Scrolling down the twitter comments, J-hope sighed as he saw another hate comments for him.

He cheated

He don't deserve the popularity

He should get out from the band

He should die

He's a piece of disturbance on this earth

He don't deserve the award

Ruffling his hair, turned off his phone and throw it onto his bed. Since he win the dance battle award, everyone seem to be mad at him for wining, its not like he know what's gonna happen, it's just happened. And it's not a bad thing, him wining the award, will bring more popularity to his band, so he's helping people recognise his band.

A knocked was heard, and J-hope looked at the door waiting for someone to enter. The door opened and stood there Jimin and V, smiling so brightly at him. J-hope mentally sighed and smiled back at them.
"Come on hyung, it's dinner" V said grabbing J-hope wrist and pulled him up. "Okay okay" J-hope chuckled and follow both of his dongsaengs to the dining area.

The next day, they have to practice their dances, but J-hope not in the brightest mood that day, he actually feel sick for some reason, it make him feel nervous and lost confidence in his self. Only 2 days left before the concert in Korea.

"HOBIE CAN YOU PLEASE PAY ATTENTION!" Rapmon snapped as he panted stopped dancing and facing J-hope with annoyed look on his face. J-hope didn't noticed that he's been dancing the wrong step, he should stop from thinking to much, it'll only stressed him out.
"I'm sorry I'll do better" he apologies and they continue to dance again.

After a few hours of practicing, they stopped for 40 minutes break, J-hope sigh in relief because he's really tired and is having a little bit of difficulty to stay awake. He usually is not like this, but the Army's hateful comments really affect him, he thought Army would be happy when he won, but it only made them hate on him. His members did not know about this, yes they knew about the hateful comments but they didn't knew, how it's really make J-hope stressed and depressed.

Getting dizzy by the time's ticking, J-hope quickly dismissed himself and went into the toilet to find peace, to calm himself.

Meanwhile in the dance room, Suga noticed the atmosphere is changing a bit, there's no loud laugh or loud voice in this dance room , looking around, he found out J-hope is not here, "where's Hope? " he asked looking at all of his band members. "I think he went to the toilet" Jungkook answer as he pushed V and Jimin away from him.
"He's been out for long though " Jin interrupted, standing up and stretching his muscle before they continue the practice. "Yah... Break time almost up" Rapmon continued.

J-hope sighed and encouraging himself again and again, to not be stress, to be happy, don't think, don't think, conceal it, don't let the feeling show. Standing up from the toilet sink, he head back to the dance room.

"Hobie hyung!? Where did you go!? You're 10 minutes late! " Jimin scolded, crossing his hand as he stopped dancing and soon the other join too. "Sorry my stomach ache " J-hope replied a bit to brightly with big smile on his face. Earning sighed from the others, he felt sick by it, he has disappointed his members again, for the second time today.

"Stop day dreaming Hoseok! Please I wanna go home early" Jin whined, snapping J-hope from his mental thought. Nodding J-hope get to his position and they started to practice again.

At 3 am, they all went back to the dorm, for their beauty sleep. Heading back to the dorm is such a pain for J-hope, he's really tired and so tired, Jimin and V always messing up with him today, always plays jokes by poking,pushing. "Hoseokie hyung why are you so quiet today?" Jungkook asked walking beside J-hope, J-hope didn't hear him because he's to into his thoughts. Groans, Jungkook shake J-hope arm,  "yah hyuuuung"

"Ahm sorry... What are you talking about Kookie? " tched Jungkook said "well since you're not interested to talk I'll go to V hyung"
Confused J-hope watched Jungkook quickly chase after V who's in front of him like a few kilometers away. "What did I do wrong now? " he sighed.

In the dorm, everyone's quickly take shower one by one, J-hope grabbed his phone as he waits for Jimin to come out. He's the last one, so he needs to stay awake as the other went to sleep.  Turning on his phone, a lot of notifications appears on the notification bars, most of it from Twitter, he knows he shouldn't open the app for now but his finger automatically pressed the Twitter app.  Reading all the comments was fun at first but then, it got to the dark side.

Oh my God, J-hope is such a failure, I guess the judge gave him the award out of pity

His breath hitched, and scroll down to read another comment.

Lol he's so ugly, I can see why he didn't got to enter the Handsomeness rank this year, Rap Monster is better looking than him

Tears started to form in his eyes.

He's so loud and annoying, always trying to look cute but he actually annoying as fuck, I'm cringing every time I look at him

Wipe the tears that escaped his eyes.

"Hey hyung it's your turn now" Jimin said walking out from the bathroom, drying his hair. Sniffing J-hope stand up from the chair and walked passed by Jimin and closed the bathroom door almost quickly.  Jimin raise an eyebrow and shrugs.

Looking at himself in the mirror, J-hope pulled his hair in frustration. "Why do you have to be so useless!? " he whisper yelled at himself in the mirror, "why do you let those negativity get through you!? " crying he screamed "why do you have to be so worthless!? Why are you even born!? Why don't you die!? People hate you anyway! " , crying again, he slumped down on the floor, pulling his knees to his chest, whispering nonsense to himself.

"People hate you"
"You're so boring"
"You're annoying"
"You're worthless"
"You bring bad luck for this band"
"You should quit"
"You should have not been born"
"You shouldn't have to enter the dance battle in the first place"
".....just be gone already "

knock knock

"Hobie? Are you okay, it's Yoongi hyung"

Panicking he quickly strips and wet himself to look like he just showered. Opening the door, he smiled at Yoongi and greet him, "hey hyung"

Yoongi looked at him with those blank look "what's hap-" "I'm going to bed now... Bye" with that J-hope leave Suga alone in front the bathroom.