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•I'm sorry• pt2 (final)

(Raining hard here, anyway here's another chapter and it's inspired by the movie Koe no Karachi : A silent voice) (trigger warning : attempt suicide)

The concert day, oh how J-hope wishes he was dead by now. He was afraid to get up on stage, he is afraid to face Army, he is afraid of his surrounding. His face is pale and looks like a dead vampire, his skin is cold, his eyes looking tired but was covered by the makeup.

"3 minutes before you went up! Guys please be prepare! " their manager shouted, telling them to stand by and be prepare to head up the stage. Gulping J-hope calm his self down and putting up a smile, and went beside Jin, wishing his members good luck before they all went up the stage.

They performed Dope, Fire, and Blood, sweat and tears. "That's all for today! Thank you for coming to this mini concert and supporting us! We love you army! Let's end this day with a couple of Q&A from Army's" Rapmon said earning loud screams from armys.

One army raise her hand, "you there" Jin called pointing at the Army. "This is not a question but me and my friends really love you guys! 6 of you! Fighting! " she said. Jin chuckle at her and continue to choose other person. J-hope looked down when the girl said 6 of them, "she's one of the haters aren't she" he thought. 

The Q&A session continue :

Army1: is J-hope burdening you guys?
Jin: haha yes he's sometimes a bit loud but he's not a burden to us at all

Rapmon: eh he's burdensome sometimes

Everyone laughed at Rapmon reply, Rapmon mean it as a joke, but to J-hope it's not.

Army2: Jin do you plan to have kids?

Jin: hahaha yes of course

Army2: Suga! Please tell us your skin care routine!

Suga : eh just wash it often and put lotion on..

Army2: Rap monster! How's your life going?

Rapmon: ahahah... Thank you for asking, my life have been fine and happy especially today because I got to meet Armys~

Army2: V!!!! And Jimin!  Do you guys fight a lot?

V: yes but it usually because of game XD

Jimin: hahah no.. It usually food.. We always fight over a food

Army2: okay that's it! Thank you!

Suga: eh no questions for J-hope?

Army2: we're not interested in him

That sentence stabbed J-hope in the heart and he laugh forcefully, "wow!! I'm so not popular today" he said sounding like joking, all the members laughed too and patted him on the back saying like "hahaha I think it's because you're not handsome" and "because you're cringy"
Of course the members are joking, but from what J-hope heard, they're mocking him.

"Just get it together J-hope! Only another minutes and home!" J-hope mentally told himself as he turn around and wipe some tears that threaten to fall. Smiling again, he played around with the maknae line, be like his usual self, annoying and loud, like they described him.

Rapmon and Jungkook started to make a conversation between them and army, and hell they are having the time to their selves. And most of the conversation they making fun of J-hope, saying he's lazy and all. Telling the army some of his secret, and then Suga and Jin decided to join the conversation. J-hope panicked and breathing heavily, his hands are shaking and he's having trouble to talk and breathe at the same time. He's having a panic attack.