Just Friends

Twenty-Fifth

"I'm here for you." Antony grabbed my face sending me chills.
"I know." I look down. I need to look away before I feel like kissing his neck.
"I ditched prom for you."
And your girlfriend.
I nod. "I know." He moves his hand away.
"I'm sorry." Antony said breaking the five second silence.
"It's ok. Really." I smile.
"It's not." He admitted.
I nod.
I don't know what to say to him.
I love you?
I love you but I don't love your girlfriend?
Leave me alone?
"I love you Emma." There's that word again. The word that breaks hearts and feelings. The word that gives false hope.

Love.

"And I know you're not comfortable with it and" I cut him off.
"I love you." I close my eyes preparing myself for what I'll say next. "But I can't love you. Not when you already have someone. And it hurts to say. You need to be sure of your feelings before you could throw that word around." I sigh. "I hope you understand Antony. I really hope you understand." I wipe away a quick tear and look at him. His eyes filled with hurt.
"I do." He wipes away the tears forming in his eyes. "I love you too Emma. I'm sorry if I hurt you. If you felt any betrayal by me. Sorry about Ethan. Sorry about everything. Sorry for loving you when I don't know of my feelings." He gives me a fake smile and stares into my eyes.
I wish he only loved me.
He finally gives up and walks away dragging his sign with him. I watch him dissapear into the night. I wish I could tell him one more thing. Just one,

Sorry I love you.