We get to zoeys room and when she sees us she smiles. They've put a cast on and everything. So now we just have to take her home.
~back at Lola's~
I gave Zoey her medicine and put her in her bed for a nap. Alanis and Jonah ended up coming over in an uber. All three of them sat on the couch as I came back down.
I walked down the stairs to the couch plopping on it next to jack. I explained what happened to Alanis and Jonah trying not to get stressed out. I still have to work, and so does alanis and i don't know if i can find her a babysitter cause i'm to scared to send her to school. I just don't know what to do.
"Here, calm down. i'll make some food for us and just relax okay?" alanis said standing up walking towards the kitchen. I nodded in response as i couldn't seem to get words out.
Jonah stood up following her and got bowls, silver ware, napkins, etc.
I leaned my head back covering my face taking a deep breath.
"Hey look, she's gonna be okay" Jack said trying to reassure, when that wasn't even what i was worried about.
"It's not that" I said muffled through my hands. "I know that" I removed my hands so he could understand me better.
"Okay then what is it" He sat up.
"I'm to scared to send her back to school" I said sinking into the couch, i knew it was a dumb reason but I was.
"What do you mean scared?" he said, i could tell he was confused. God, guys are so clueless.
"I don't know" I said sitting up "The other kids could be reckless or something" I shrugged.
"Well one, thinking like that won't help" He said placing his hand softly on my back.
"Am i being a to overprotective mom, were it gets annoying?" I say with a slight chuckle looking at him. He shakes his head laughing.
"I mean you can never really be to overprotective, it's a good thing, but i know what you mean...and no" He said smiling.
"Good." I responded with a nod, running a hand through my hair. No i really think i'm over reacting.
"Hey can we-"
"I made soup!" Alanis said from the kitchen holding up a spoon. We both looked over as her and jonah were laughing.
-Jack's POV-
"Hey can we-" I started until alanis cut me off from the kitchen. Anytime i wanna talk to her it's always ruined or she doesn't want to. I actually want to play a role in Zoeys life, which i kinda do but it almost feels as if she won't let me.
-Lola's POV-
I got up and walked to the kitchen and got us all drinks. We had a nice....dinner...lunch? Im not sure what you wanna call this. Well they did, I just got myself to worked up. I ate some and pushed the bowl away. Jonah was in the kitchen getting more soda and Alanis had went to the bathroom. Jack looked over at me.
"Oh...you can't let yourself get so worked up over it. Cmon eat" he said trying to sound as calm as possible.
"No uh...I was just gonna check on Zoey" i said moving a strand of hair out of my face.
"You can always check on her after your done eating, it'll get cold"
"I can always heat it up" I tried to save myself.
"okay look i know you're lying." he said setting his spoon down. I sighed.
"yeah...i don't know why i'm letting this get to me" I said as he just nodded not knowing how to respond.
I won't let this last for long. It can't last for long. It shouldn't last for long. I mean knowing what i went through in school still always has me iffy on even sending zoey to school in the first place. But she's always learned to keep a smile on her face.....is it a fake smile?
a/n
so like...i'm alive. I think. i'm sorry i don't know i like died then came back alive but i'm gonna try and update more and ilysm ive seen all the comments etc ♥️♥️♥️😭😭😭
-ken
