I love our memories and talks on the phone. I always thought that one day you would catch feelings for someone else, and you would be done with me. And that day that thing happened.. I knew it was going to happen knew it was coming but when I saw it I couldn't even talk or cry I just started freaking out just staring at nothing, then I bursted into tears but I stopped and told myself that it would be okay and that I could talk to you about it and when I tried it just didn't work out so well, the thing that hurt the most was how I had to keep repeating and telling people what happened most people thought it was a prank because I had a smile on my face to not make it so depressing lol but everyone I talked to wanted us to get back together and so did I, I decided not to give up on us. Another thing that hurt was how you said bye. And when my mom found out I didn't know what she was trying to say. And the way you said bye is what really hurt i don't even know how to explain it but I tried to stay up, and I hated how people thought it was okay to try and get with me because I didn't have a boyfriend the only person I wanted was you but it didn't seem like you wanted me... Did you? The reason we had lots of problems was mostly my fault because I didn't know if something was going to hit me, I have been through a lot but I know that there is worst things so I'm thankful for that and I'm thankful for having you in my life and I know we are back together but for some reason I still hurt. You always made my day. But now it's different and when I try talking to you about it nicely, you just don't seem to care.. Is it me? Because I remember you telling me I was such a good gsirlfriend. I don't even know if this is going to work out but I'm willing to give it a try but only if you actually try.
