FOREVER I DO || DEETRANADA AU ||

I shouldn't have done that chapter 10

*DEE*

I sat down on the cold outside ground as he stormed off. I could see the hurt in his heart. He trusted me and I showed that I can't be trusted. I shouldn't have done that. I should've came out with it and told him I was pregnant and the baby was his. I feel like shit. I just cried on the ground as he pulled off. "Dee come on", Latto said lifting me up. She helped me walk into the house and sat me on the couch. Latto sat next to me and pulled me into her arms and held me tightly. " it's gone be okay dee I promise", Latto said. I let my tears go freely , I can't believe what A dummy I'am. If I would've been honest from the beginning this wouldn't have happened. " don't call yourself he scared you that if you were pregnant he would leave you. Don't beat yourself up for this. Yeah you should've told you but you were scared he don't understand that, Latto said. I nodded she was right but it doesn't make what I did better or make me right in the situation cause I'm not. Jae walked in. What's wrong?. "Kori found out about the baby and he broke up with dee", Latto said. Wtf he broke up with you because of the baby? Jae said getting angry. Nooo she never told him about someone else told him, Latto said. Omg dee you never told him you were pregnant?. I just started to cry even more jae came and and hugged me. It's okay don't stress it too much. I feel like a dumb ass I shouldn't have kept it from him over my fear of him leaving me which keeping it from him made him leave me. " don't say that no you wasn't right but don't make yourself feel less over this" jae said hugging me too late. I cried some more not holding in. I can't believe this.

*KORI*

I stormed into the house not looking at none of the boys while they play the game. They looked at me they looked scared. They called my name I ignore them walking straight to my room slamming the door. I was pissed never seen myself so mad I just sat on the bed put my hands on my face and begin smacking face and started throwing stuff. Why did she keep this from me? Did she think keeping the fact I have a SON from me was better then telling me? I broke the window in my room THIS IS SOME OLE BULLSHIT YO. I fell to the ground letting my tears fall I wouldn't even been able to be in my sons life if they didn't tell me. I heard the door open. " you good brother , said Justin. Nah man how could she just keep this from me? She knew I had trust issues I cared for her and trusted her and she lies and kept this from me. That hurts. Kori I know she wasn't right I'm on your side with that. But you scared her. She felt if she was pregnant she would've ended up taking care of the baby alone which is why she kept it from you , wouldn't doe I said looking down. We both know that kori but I'm saying you scared her into thinking if she was pregnant she's gone be alone you kept saying I don't want kids right now yet your fucking her raw no condom how you think kids are made? On a tree? Ji I said with a serious face. I chucked a little through my falling tears. I wiped them and nodded. I just can't go back to her after this. This hurt , I never want my child to look at me as a dead beat cause my dad was that. My actual dad. Ji puts his hand on my shoulder but you can't shut her out out either I look down parts of what he's saying is true. I honestly don't know what to do.

*DEE*

The next day

I woke up sick not even just because of being pregnant but because of kori , I didn't even think of how bad this was gone hurt him. I was being selfish not thinking about his feelings. I got up and ran to the bathroom cause I had to throw up. Latto runs to the bathroom to grab my braids. " you good sis", Latto asked. I'm trying to be this baby is killing me LITRALLY I'm sick almost everyday. Latto laughed helping back to my room. The door ranged , you rest I'll go get it Latto said. She went to answer it I heard jae and mikayla. Mikayla is kori cousin but she became real close with me over time me and kori got together. " where she at ?" , mikayla asked. She's in her room she's sick doe. Latto added she nodded and came back towards my room with Jae with her. " heeeyyyyy hunnybun I heard what happened I was coming to see was you okay", mikayla asked. Jae kissed my forehead. Hey y'all I'm trying to do better this baby don't wanna let me liveeeeee. They laughed cause they knew that was one of the songs I wrote. " it's gone be worth it when your prince or princess is born", mikayla said. It won't be the same without kori in my life he changed me with out him I'm going back to my old self. " DONT SAY THAT DEE", jae said defensive I'm sorry jae I shouldn't have said it but it's probably true. He changed me so much I wasn't in full affect until he enter my life. Jae looked down. She knew it was true after dyson I tried killing myself many many times. " I know my cousin is a dick but I need you to know can't no man make you feel anyway about your self. The only thing they can do is make you realize yourself you been this way before you met kori you just didn't wanna admit it. Don't do that dee", mikayla said. I look down I just want him to realize I didn't do this to hurt him I did this because I didn't know how he was gone feel it was sparing my feelings for hurting. I'm dealing with a lot I lost my bestfriend and now I'm pregnant and single and I didn't want it to end like this. I begin crying again letting my tears fall freely. Latto jae and mikayla pulled me into they're arms letting me let them come out.