just me

11/17/2017

So yassssss today Thanksgiving break has officially started. And I'm spending it watching TV and writing.

Okay so have you ever had a really weird dream. I did.

So last night I dreamt that I was in New York at a new-years eve party. When there was an eclipse but the Sun was facing us instead of the moon. As I was looking at the sun, solar flares were well flaring off of it. Like they were huge if you could see them from earth. And instantly I knew earth's time was over. But what got me was this. I have a hard time believing in god I want to but it's just hard for me. And death scares me already. So in my dream I prayed to god and asked for forgiveness. I asked him to forgive me for being gay also. In a matter of a few seconds. Then I looked up and solar flares were ripping up the earth. People were dying and fire was every where. I felt heat and blinding light. I knew I died but everything was dark. And I couldn't move, I got really scared. It felt like forever. Than I opened my eyes eyes and I was in the future, I don't know how but I was. Everything was shiny and amazing, there were floating buildings and teleporting cars. I was amazed but then filled with fear and dread and sadness. I didn't belong here. I belonged to the past or even hell really. Everyone I knew was dead and I didn't get how this place worked, I didnt know if I was in the future or in heaven. I felt like Captain America but worse. I wanted to die. Being alive in this place didn't feel right. But I was scared. I didn't want to die. I feared being in that dark confined place. It was scary. I thought it was heaven and I knew I didn't belong even more because I was gay. So I asked god to let me go. I couldn't get rid of the feeling of cheating my sins. I had to pay for them first. Next thing i new
I was getting on a car. It teleported to
The sky and dumped me out. I was falling and falling. At first I was scared but then it felt right, like this was the right thing to do. I hit the ground and woke up from my dream.  I was on the floor. When I woke up.

So yeah. I can't help but think of it now. Like was it just a dream? Did it mean something? I don't know. But it honestly scares me. Like is that how the world ends. Was I in heaven. I wish I knew. Dreams are weird. But that dream felt so real. Like a Freddy Kruger dream.

Any ways enough talk of crazy dreams, guess who called me an hour ago.

BRAXTON!!!

Can you believe it. I can't. When I answered the phone I was like." Hello, who dis".
And then he said "hey it's me Braxton". My jaw dropped and my stomach filled with butterfly's. Be cool Corey don't say anything stupid.
"why are you calling me... I mean how'd you get my number."?
"Milam gave it to me".

So then this was the whole conversation. Not 100 percent accurate. But pretty close. (going off memory here)

Me - so why do you have my number?

Him - I just wanted it so we could talk or something.

Me - okay, sooo umm what do you want to talk about?

Him - I don't know.

Me - Braxton how are you gonna get my number, call me, tell me you want to talk,  then have nothing to talk about.

Him - well I thought you wouldn't answer the phone honestly.

Me - well I sorta did Mr know it all
(smile)

Him - okay okay I have something to talk about.

Me - like what?

(talking nonsense. Laughing. Me flirting but not to out there. And then)

Him - hey you wanna come over today? I just got an xbox 1.

Me -(exploding inside) yeah that sounds cool but...

Him - but what?

Me - I have no idea where you live. And I don't even know if my parents will let me come over,  most likely yes but still a chance.

Him - that's okay I can pick you up.

Me - okay I'll be right back.

Him - okay.

(getting permission from mother)
(yes)  (goal accomplished)

Me - okay so I can come over.

Him - okays how 12:00?

Me - at night?!?

Him - no in the afternoon. And I thought I was the know it all. (laugh)

Me - (laugh)okay so here's my address. *(sensitive info) * so I guess you could GPS it or something.

Him - yeah okay I'll be there. Be ready, cause it's gonna be awesome.

Me - okay, bye Braxton.

Him - by Corey.

(call ended)

So after that I was jumping up and down in joy. It was amazing.
So here I am in some jeans, boots and a light blue harley shirt. Looking at the clock.
Its just 11:13 now so I'm just gonna log off watch TV wait for him to come (haha inside dirty joke). And than later tonight log back on and tell you what happened.

So bye.

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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, (like a cheery girl)

It was just like Braxton said, AMAZING!!