In love with a psychopath ((Ciel x physopath reader))

Ch. 5

I was in my room hiding not making a sound I only heard his footsteps I was crying, which was a huge mistake to do he heard and heard him enter my  room searching for me I was hiding under the bed , the footsteps stopped, I was dragged out of the bed , I saw his fist coming towards my face 

~end of dream~

I woke up sweating, breathing heavily, I started sobbing and hugged my knees, I notice it was still night so I decided to go get fresh air. 

I went outside, it wasn't that cold so but I felt shivers in my spine, I took deep breaths in and out 

"What are you doing?" I turn and saw Ciel 

"I should the same, I needed fresh air so I went outside, what about you?" I asked 

"Well I still needed to finish papers so I had to stay up late and I was going to sleep and saw yup going out...why are your eyes red?" He asked raising an eyebrow 

"I-it's nothing" I stuttered and turn around and set down in the grass, I saw ciel sit down next to me 

"That's not a good reason, what happen...I though since we are best friends, I guess, I though you will tell me secrets?" He asked worried 

"Tch, it's personal..." I look up at the sky 

"I'll tell you one of my secrets of you tell why were you crying" I look at him with wide eyes

"You know I'm a criminal why would you tell me secrets?" I asked confused 

"Well you haven't done anything for the past few days so.." he asked looking at the sky 

"Okay then tell me a secret" I asked and gave me a fake smiled 

"Well when I was a child my childhood was really happy, I was always happy you know, and my manor was always happy and full of smiles. Until... my 10th birthday, the manor caught on fire I was running around the manor and found my parents, my dog and...dead" he stopped he was gonna say someone else but didn't 

"I ran into Tanaka and told me to run far and he will catch up to me but he got hit and this person grabbed me and took me, they sold me...to this people who gave me the "noble beast" sign I was sick, dirty and hurt at that time, they chained me up in a cage and...made someone  a sacrifice for a ritual, it was my turn and they stab me somehow I manage to survive, and make a contract with Sebastian, and until I get my revenge he will take my soul.." I stayed in silence I didn't know what to say...so i hugged him 

"I'm sorry that happen to you, it must've have been horrible..." I hugged him harder and notice I was hugging him, so I backed away 

"Heh, sorry I just felt bad" I smiled 

"I-it's fine so what your secret" I looked down 

"Well when I was 9, my dad had troubles with money and he would drink and he will hit my mom, my mom committed suicide and I was there... she jump from the roof while I was coming home from school I saw standing there I screamed to not do anything but she jump anyway, I called my dad, we did a funeral, it was only me not even my dad went, after the funeral I went home and saw my dad drinking he said where was I and that why wasn't the food ready?, he then stood up and hit me hard that I bleed from my nose, he kept doing it for a few weeks, I-I couldn't take it anymore so I did something, I killed him I was still 9 and I ran away and a men helped me  he knew how to fight so I asked if he could help me fight I lied that I got inspired from him, I did, but I wanted to get revenge on men who hit women. 

And that it" I smiled and next thing I know Ciel was hugging me, he said sorry that happen, I started sobbing and hugged him back