[ Soulmates ] Jikook [ RE-WRITING ]

[ Chapter 13 ]

[ Jimin's P.O.V. ]

My eyes were red, puffy and swollen when I first opened them.

Only to see the rays of the sun shine through the blinds and hit my eyes again.

I rubbed my eyes harshly again remembering last night.

I turned to my right to see a beautiful man, one that I should never even dream of talking to, yet here he is trying to make me happy.

I'm too ugly for him

I'm not worth his time

I'm too fat

But he's...he's perfect...

I'm nothing like him, I should just feel satisfied that he even wants to talk to me.

I'm so ungrateful

I want more with this man

I'm so damn selfish

Stop reaching for something you can't have Jimin

Tears unconsciously rolled down my cheeks as I stared at the boy

I wish he was my soulmate

What a funny joke he told me last night

It was so funny I even cried

His little cheeks were puffing in and out slowly letting out little snores pushing his loose fringe back into the air.

I sighed as I slowly got up and threw my legs over the bed, into my bunny slippers and waddled around my bed towards the bathroom.

As I stood in front of the bathroom door I looked behind my shoulder to look at the sleeping boy once more.

I just couldn't get enough of him

I twisted the knob and let myself in to the familiar room and locked the door behind me.

I looked at the mirror

Another day looking like this

Why am I like this?

Why am I so unworthy of the world?

I should just disappear, it would be better for everyone that way.

I let out a shaky breath and looked at my puffy red eyes once more.

As more tears spilled I pulled open the cabinet and reached towards the back.

As my hand wrapped around the familiar sharp object I pulled it out towards me.

This blade is my only friend

No one could ever love me

My shaky hands gripped the handle firmer as I slid against the cold tiles of the bathroom.

I looked at it one last time before I rolled up my shirt.

Sliding it gently across my stomach where Jungkook had kissed it the night before.

Sliding it across every line of my abs.

Sliding it SO gently that it wasn't deep enough to cut anything yet.

Then I pressed further into my flesh and held my fist into my mouth trying to hold in the yelps.

There was only so much sound I could muffle.

Until I heard a scream from Jungkook outside.

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A/N THanK y'ALL for 1K views !!! I'll make a special chapter for that soon ;^)))

Would you guys prefer a smut or a video of me playing a BTS song on the guitar ??

Also it's flooding a hECKA lot over here so had to cancel all my plans for my bday :"))

I was gonna go to a cat cafe and a sushi train place :"))

What a sHAme

Chapter release: 1/12/2017