The Basement

Chapter 2

I'm in freshman year at Islands High School now. I used to have a lot of friends now I only have four really close ones. Emory, my Gucci chairleg. Haven, my father figure. Marshmallow, my cat.

And Koridia. She's imaginary, but she's real to me. I tell these four everything. They are very important to me. I'm already losing Emory. I can feel it. He strays farther away by the second. Peers and family have influenced home in the worst ways possible and he went off the deep end. Haven and I aren't as close as we used to be, because we never get to talk anymore. My marshmallow is heartbroken because of a relationship. I don't know how to fix him. At least I know Koridia will be ok. I have a relationship. It's the best thing in my life right now. It's what's keeping me going, knowing that they love me and want me to succeed. You may have noticed I said “they". I mean it. I and in a polygamous relationship. There are three of us. Me, my boyfriend, and my girlfriend. My girlfriend's name is Tristan. She's the most understanding soul on the planet. She has MPD. She's had it for awhile. She's had a hard home life too. She's gonna graduate this year. She's extremely smart. I love her very much. My boyfriend's name is Payton. He's loving and headstrong. He's very smart and is also graduating this year. He's totally selfless and he puts everyone above himself. It worries me. I love him though. They were dating long before I came into this. I feel left out because of that sometimes. I'm also extremely inexperienced. With everything. I've been kissed of course, but I'm still a virgin. They aren't though. You see my problem? I'm constantly worried that I'm not not good enough, or that I'm disappointing them, or that they'll get bored waiting for me to be ready to lose my virginity. But to me, that's something I wanna save. I wanna wait until I know that they won't leave me. I just wanna make sure that I don't make a mistake. I was almost raped. I'm not gonna say who or when because I don't want there to be an issue. I've dealt with police before and they aren't any help. They only ever make things worse. But that was another experience where I made a mistake. I wanted to lose it too soon. And he scared me so I asked he to stop but he wouldn't. I don't wanna go through that again. But I know I don't have long before they get bored. Everyone does eventually. But this is different. Tristan gave me a ring and proposed. I'm engaged to them. I feel like this will last. I hope it does.