Little Things

Personal

okay so, i wrote this one to be kind of specific to an event that happened in my life... so please don't hate, this is still an event that affects me to this day. 

I walk through the door

Happy to be home

Heard her scream

Making me turn around

To see you there

The monster

The big bad wolf

Her ex-husband

I know who you are

10 year old me

Would be less scared

If you were a robber

Funny what you did to me, huh?

Is this what you wanted?

Sent to bed with adrenaline

Still flying

6 hours and I'm wide awake

More scared than ever

I feel like I'm dying

My head, my body, everything

Everything hurts

More screams

More cries

All for help

Yet, no one does

I can't feel anymore.

Numb. if you would

"Let it hurt" you say

As she leaves the bathroom

You said you love her?

Lie. lie. Lie.

I never thought,

You would leave those marks

The red, purple, blue, and black

All adorning her neck

You pinned, you yelled,

But you hurt too.

Me, him, her, even you

I wake the dead

We both cry and he leaves

Stopping the fight I could not.

I don't feel safe.

Not with you,

Across the room

I tell, by a note

Like a weight that

Dragged our tears out

Terrified,

I would always feel

Until you were gone.

I thought I was scared

Years before

I was never more fearful

What do you gain?

School hours come,

And your driving,

She takes him in,

Leaving me with you.

As time passes

You leave.

With me trapped.

Dropping me off in a place

I don't know,

1 person.

1 time, i've been here.

I tell.

Everything I remember.

Police station, hospital, why?

Your later in jail.

We're all frail.

She can't lift her shirt

Or be alone, and I can't

See people the same.

-original