Side Stories

Hope

Where do I begin with hope?

Okay, I'll start with the definition of hope.

You see hope is an optimistic state of mind that is based on an expectation of positive outcomes with respect to events and circumstances in one's life or the world at large.

In other words it is a feeling of expectation and desire for a particular thing to happen.

But the truth is you don't always get what you hoped.

I remember when I first went to kindergarten I wanted my parents to take me home and never send me to that place ever again but that never happened.

Then during my middle school I hoped I would never get anything that will keep me awake all night but that never happened, it was either the homework or the assignment or that huge project that counted more than 50% of the subject's grade.

It was the same story in high school but I started to hope for more things even then, like I hoped that my crush would look at me or I would somehow make it into the sports team or even miraculously become a cheer leader and so on and so forth.

Then during college and university I hoped to get good grades and then get an amazing job and live a satisfactory life...but that never happened.

After all my hopes shattered like glass I still can't stop hoping that somehow everything will be okay, that everything will become exactly like I hoped. 

Even now when I'm 23 and at stage 4 of my skin cancer, taking my last breaths I hope that all my pain will go away and that I live my life like I hoped.

I guess I should've learned from my past that life will not give you what you hoped but I suppose that is what makes as human...

A.N. This is just a part of a story that I thought of.