Fire & Ice

Envy 05

It was one of those sexy magazines with a shirtless man posing on the cover page and on the original picture of the model David had very neatly cut out the face and replaced it with another guys face.
I almost stopped breathing.
I felt a lot of emotions in that moment but mostly I felt angry, At David for liking someone else whilst flirting with me all time, I know he jokes around like that, but doesn't that mean he most likely has no true feeling for me.
"SIMON!"
I blinked, looked at him.
"Honestly u are acting very weird"
"Um...what"
"Anyway I gotta go to sleep..here's your wallet, good night"
I dreaded going home, no I couldn't......the thought of returning to the big empty space where I would be left alone with my thoughts scared me to death......But David was honestly making me extremely angry, with his idk-what's-wrong attitude and him flirting with everyone and having sex with random girls.
I almost thought I had some sort of hope, and now it's all gone.
So I forcefully dragged myself out of David's room and without a word.
The next few days were torture.
He was the last first and every single thought in between that went through my head all day. I couldn't concentrate on anything.
       Is David gay? Or bisexual? Does he even like me the slightest bit? Does David play around with a lot of men or women? Is he dating the lady I saw with him that night?
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Do I have any hope for making him mine?
Ugh, I am overthinking everything-honestly a man like him could never want me, he didn't care about money so to him I had nothing, I was only an act for him to tug along on set so that the viewer ratings get higher and he keeps everyone entertained.
I was hurt, that he could use me like that, and it was eating me alive.
I WILL put an end to this.