Through the Month (Destiel,Sabriel,Michifer and Adamandriel Camp AU)

Friends?|20

Samandriel's P.O.V.
Monday Afternoon

We were still walking and we stopped to have dinner.

"Samandriel you-" Micheal starts but I ignore the rest of what he's gonna say.

It doesn't matter, I messed up.

I don't want forgiveness,I don't want them to think that I shouldn't have consequences.

Its not that I don't want to talk to them it's that I don't feel like I disserve to, Adam was right.

Everything this morning was the truth that I couldn't accept.

I messed up, it's all my fault.

I don't deserve them.

"Samandriel they're worried." Gabriel says.

"Samandriel, I'm not mad about what you did. You know that I went back to Kali after Lucifer told me not to." Gabriel states.

I didn't reply.

"Yeah. I guess it's pointless I mean it's not like you care about me or anything." Gabriel says.

"So I can say anything and you won't reply?" Gabriel asks.

"Okay, so..... how's life?" Gabriel asks.

Bad

"Good,that's awesome." Gabriel says.

"How's mine? I would say between Ehh and maybe." Gabriel explains.

I start to ignore him and I hear footsteps, he left.

I didn't know that I expected. He wouldn't stay, I didn't even reply.

"Why are you ignoring me." Gabriel yells.

"Please, I'm sorry." Gabriel apologises.

I breathe in and then out and I turn away.

"Please? I just want to talk, I want my lil Alfie back." Gabriel says.

No

Don't give in.

"So what you went back to Crowley, we all make mistakes." Gabriel says.

"Eat this, you didn't eat lunch." Gabriel growls and gives me a sandwich.

I look at it for a second and then away.

"What? Not hungry, neither am I." Gabriel says and sets the sandwich down.

"I don't blame you for going back to Crowley, I don't think Lucifer should have yelled." Gabriel says.

"Please eat something today." Gabriel replies as he goes to sit somewhere else.

So the tables have turned.

Adam's P.O.V.
Monday Afternoon
I see Gabriel walk away from Samandriel and go sit by Castiel,Sam and Dean.

Micheal is sitting next to me and Lucifer is on a rock 'sleeping'.

"Hey Mikey!" Lucifer yells.

I look over and Micheal is heading to talk to Lucifer.

Now I'm ALL BY MYSELF.

I will never apologise.

I look over at Dean,Castiel,Sam and Gabriel.

Sam and Cas laughing,Dean is trying to act cool(As always) and Gabriel is talking.

I look over at Samandriel, blank expressions, still adorable but also rude.

Now I'm looking and Micheal and Lucifer.

Lucifer just winked and smirked as Micheal is glaring at him but everytime he turns he away from Lucifer he'll laugh.

And here I am being a creep and watching everyone.

This is so stupid.

All of this wouldn't of happened if I just went with Samandriel.

"Samandriel." I yell.

Samandriel looks at me and tilts his head and I wave for him to come over here.

He looks back at the sandwich and grabs it's and starts walking to me.

"What?" Samandriel sasses.

"I'm sorry for blaming you, I shouldn't have." I apologise.

"I agree." Samandriel says.

I look away for a second.

You agree, no this is stupid. It is your fault. You shouldn't have went to that stupid Crowley kid.

Do you know how much that hurt? No because you can't comprehend how messed up my feeling are.

"Yeah." I nod.

"Well is that all you wanted to say?" Samandriel asks.

No, Is the reason you went to him because I wanted to be friends. Because I didn't want us to break up and not be friends. Because maybe once in my life I don't want a person that will leave.

"Yeah, sorry." I say.

"Okay." Samandriel says.

"Do you want this half?" Samandriel offers.

"Yeah, thanks." I grab it.

"Friends?" He asks.

I nod.

But it doesn't feel the same as before,I don't feel happy when I talk to him I feel mad, angry.

But hey we're friends again.

Samandriel's P.O.V.
Monday Afternoon
He nods.

I look at him ask he is looking away thinking.

I still feel bad.

"No." I take a deep breath and he looks at me.

"You shouldn't apologise, you were right. I didn't have a right to go to Crowley. I didn't feel wanted when I was with you so I left because I wanted to feel needed but I've already said that." I say.

"Remember when you keep missing?" He asks.

"In archery, yeah?" I answer.

"Why did you give up?" He asks.

"Because I though you were better." I reply.

"So then why did you try again when I told you to?" He asks.

"I trust you." I say.

"So why did you go to Crowley and not me, we could have talked it over. I want to yell at you but I can't everytime I try I just can't. It's like my brain and my mouth aren't connected. I can't anymore but it doesn't feel the same. I ca-" I grab him and put him into a hug.

He's crying into my shoulder and is yelling something.

He's gonna lose his voice if he keeps this up.

He hits me and I wince.

It hurts but I feel that I deserve it.

"I'm sorry." He whispers.

"Don't be." I reply.