Everything Changes Now

XV

Jake's P.O.V

She's crying. Why is she crying?

"Shh, baby what's wrong?" I say mentally freaking out .

"I just feel bad babes.  I fucking hurt you and I didn't mean to," she pause to wipe some stray tears away. "I'm so sorry. We were just messing with you two. We thought you guys would realize that," she says and puts her head in the crook of my neck light feathering it with kisses. When she straddles me and pushes me to the ground going back to attacking my neck with kisses while sucking and biting every few inches leaves multiple hickeys and love bites on my neck and collar bone.

"Mmm, Han stop please, before we do something out here that's meant to happen in the privacy of ones bedroom, on a bed." I say and she doesn't listen and keeps going. I finally turn us around and lay her back on the blanket. She started something I really want to finish, but I just slowly kiss her lips and get off her. 

She pouts. "Sorry, babe" I say and get the food from the basket and pull out Oreos and pizza. Her Favorite.

"You know me so well." she says giggling, the kissing my cheek. Oh, how I love that giggle. It's amazing.

"Of course I know my baby. I know everything about you," I pause for a second "I grew up with you baby, you should know I know your favorite foods." I say placing kisses on her neck.

After we're done eating, I get up and help her up. We walk to the pond that's under the waterfall and sit down.

"Why did you do all of this, Jake?" she asks looking me in the eyes.

"Because Hanna for once in my life I finally got what I've wanted all my life I've always had to follow someone else's path but now I have you and I've always wanted you in a way I shouldn't, but I can't help it you making something inside me feel at peace. At home. Like I'm supposed to be here with you." I say truthfully.

"Oh," she says shocked at what I said.

"I always thought you thought of me as Blake's annoying little sister and that you liked Taylor." she says looking down with a frown. 

I chuckle and lift her head up so she's looking at me "I've never thought of you has a little sister and I've never liked Taylor the way I like you" I emphasis the little sister and say the truth. 

'How has she never seen the way I look at her?' I say to myself. 

"Because I don't see what you see in me Jake I never have" she says "before you ask, yes you said that out loud" 

I make an 'O' shape with my mouth and look at her to see she's crying,

 "Hey hey hey now why are you crying princess?" I ask worried.

"I just, ugh, it's so hard trying to be happy all the time well trying to be" she pauses "I think I have depression but you can't tell Taylor," she pauses again "but you can't tell Taylor she would worry about me more than she already does." 

"Oh," I say and continue what I needed to say. "When did you start thinking this, princess?" 

"Well, a couple months ago. I just I'm always really sad and I feel like nobody cares and that I have no but I do and it's scaring me cause it's being to get worse." she says looking down. 

"It's okay, we'll get through this together but you really need to tell Taylor or I will." I say and look at my phone. "Come on. It's 7:30. We should be heading back to the house."

 I stand up  helping her up and we start walking back. I really love her and I don't want anything to happen to her, Taylor really needs to know this. 

So that's a lot to take in on Jake's part. I'm so sorry we haven't updated in a while but there's a lot to come and some things will get very serious and. 

 if you have depression or anxiety it'll get better I promise it may not seem like it now but it will. you have family and friends who love and care about you. If you need someone to talk to I'm here and so is the other Author message us we'll listen and we'll try to help. 

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