Complicated // Why Don't We BoxBoy

5

Daniel's pov

I get out the car and the second I do my shoe hit the dirt. So this is what a retreat looks like? Nature? Who would've thought. "Hi guys! Welcome to the....." I hear someone start to say but it gets muffled by my thoughts. And right now all I'm thinking about is jack. I stare at him hoping he doesn't notice. Why did I kiss him? Why am I so stupid? I take a deep breath out.

"Any questions?" I hear the blonde lady say. I look up at her. "Uh yeah what's your name?" I ask. She laughs. "Looks like someone spaced out. I'm Britney, I'm only here to start you guys off and you're good to go on your own" she says. I nod. "Now normally we choose where and who you sleep with, but for today you guys may choose." Britney says. I definitely do not want to be with jack. That would be awkward.

"Alright thank you Britney. I think we're good, thank you so much" Jonah says. Britney nods and smiles. "Sure, I'll be over there if you need me at all this trip" she points to a lodge. "So bye guys!" She says. She waves and then she's gone. "Ok guys who's sleeping with who?" Jonahs asks. We all look at each other. I make slight eye contact with jack but it's broken. "Me and zach" Corbyn says.

My eyes widen. "Uhh and me and you Jonah....." I look over at jack and he looks down. He looks almost disappointed. It breaks my heart. "Jack you could come with us if you want" I say. He nods his head but doesn't look at us. "Ok guys" Jonah claps his hands. "Were all going to meet up at that fire thingy at 8:00" he points to a fireplace. We all nod.

Zach and Corbyn crab their bags and look for a lodge to sleep in. The rest of us find a place to sleep. We enter the lodge and there's 4 beds. I choose a bed and sit down. I sigh. Here we go with the jack thoughts. I start spacing out but the I feel a hand on my shoulder. Jack??

"Hey you hungry?" It's Jonah. I shake my head. "No but thank you" I say. He just nods his head and walks away to make a sandwich. Jonah is such a grown up, he's like a dad it's so cute. Woah! I mean it's cool.... ugh fuck it I'm gay.... I think I still really don't know. I want to find out what I really am. It's just not easy. I mean yes I kissed a guy, but that can mean anything right? Maybe not.

I watch the time tick by. 7:57, 7:58, 7:59.... finally, it hits 8:00. "Time to meet at the fire place" Jonah says. I stand up from my bed. I watch jack exit the lodge and start walking toward the fireplace. I take a deep breath to prepare the awkwardness of the whole fireplace thing. I exit the lodge too and start making my way to the fireplace. I see a fire being made by zach although he kinda looks confused.

When I get there I sit down on one of the logs surrounding the fire pit. The fire starts warming me up. I breath in the smell of fire wood. I've always found it relaxing. It might not be healthy. Soon we're all sitting by the campfire. There's an awkward silence that I was really trying to avoid.

"I sense a tension here." Corbyn says. I roll my eyes. "Thanks for stating out the obvious Corbyn" I say. He chuckles to himself. "He's not wrong though, I feel it too, the tension. Maybe it wasn't a good idea splitting up. I think we should all come together tonight" jonah says. "There only four beds in our lodge Jonah" I say.

"Then we'll all carry a bed from zach and Corbyn's lodge to our's" he says. I nod my head. "Is there something wrong Daniel? You've been quite today" Jonah asks. "Yeah I'm just getting used to the environment around me I guess" I reply. "You guess? Daniel what's wrong we're all here" Jonah says. I take a deep breath. Should I tell them? No. Not now.

I just shake my head. "Ok guys let's talk about how our days went. Zach? Corbyn? What did you guys do when we seperated?" Jonah asks. Zach and Corbyn giggle to themselves. "Um well Zach brought some uno card and he kept losing so we just settled it the old way. We threw cards everywhere..." Corbyn says then laughs. "How does that settle it?" Jonah asks. "It doesn't it's just fun" he laughs.