07-04-17
Fast forward to the first day of school.
So today is where I finally get to see Carter again, face to face...
Suddenly all the memories just... came in like a tsunami.
04-24-17
He doesn't seem interested in me anymore, whenever I try to talk to him he just... makes up excuses, seen zones me, etc. the old classic excuses made by every coward ever.
But not today, I'm done with his shitty attitude, I gave him two chances already and I'm really not up for giving him another one. I'm going to break up with him... but I still am going to tell him the thing that happened with my ex, Anton... but after I break it off with him.
I pick my phone up and smarmy to messenger, noticing that he was finally online and quickly but not too quickly sent him a message.
Hey, can we talk? It's just quick, promise.
Uh, sure
What abt??
I'm breaking up with you.
This relationship is so not working out since only one of us is trying. And plus, you're still so young, I get you're not experienced since I am your first girlfriend but like I did not see you try at all, and I feel sad because you never gave me enough attention and that I thought you were only after the sex, which to this day, still think it.
Rose...
I'm glad that u know that it's not working out, and ye, I'm cool with breaking up, I'm sorry for not giving u the level of attention u wanted/needed, you have to remember tht I still am a 14 year old and ur 15 with more experience than me since u have abt what, 4 bfs b4 me? I dunno but yeah, I'm okay with this... I hope this won't make it awkward
What the fuck? He actually is okay with it? I thought he'd go like; "I'm sorry, I want to try again, blah blah blah..." But I guess it's fine that he didn't say things like those or else my unwanted naive ass would take over and give him another chance, right now I'm in the mood to let go. But before that ends...
Yeah, hopefully... But Carter...
Oh shit, here it goes...
Yeah??
I cheated on u with Anthony
Oh...
When???
I mean like ya know
Two days ago... I'm sorry...
Fuck, I was legit full on crying because I felt guilty as fuck and I never intended to cheat, also because I talk about how cheaters are the most awful people of all time and now I'm one of them, I'm a cheating hypocrite...
Oh, okayyyyy, that's fine
What... the... actual... fuck...
Who in the world, would react like that after finding out they just got cheated on?
I'll tell you who... Carter.
And summer after that was a bit better now that I don't have to deal with trying to seem like a good girlfriend when I really never had an opportunity to be a girlfriend since the boyfriend won't give me a chance to give him my love.
Oh god, and he isn't that cute... but he's still cute... and my type... the curly locks, full and totally kissable... I stop my daydream there and continued with hated...
From the top... he's not that cute... not my type... messy curled up hair... and totally chapped lips... nothing I want to be seen with...
Then after that, I tried my best to distract myself with something actually important.
07-04-17
We only had to clean classrooms for the first day and just discuss about the welcoming camp for the new students.
And through out the entire day... he ignored me.
I could careless, or so I thought.
