Me

My nights

Yknow I hate my life
Hate my body
Hate my friends
Hate this society
Hate this illness
I wanna die
Nobody loves me
Nobody cares
I could just die nobody would care
I fought so hard to pass this illness
People think it was easy
Did I beat it to fast
I'm scared to tell people
I want help no one believes me
I wanna go back deep in my illness
Nobody knows my secret
I have a deep secret and I don't know who to tell
I guess I understand why people don't like me I don't even like me
School is stressing
Life is stressful
Food is stressful
Dreams are worthless
I'm worthless
Who would even wanna actually be part of my life???
I know I wouldn't
Why can't I die
Why do I have to live
I'm gonna stop now
I'll try
I'll lessen little by little
No one will notice
People then might care
Lie again
Feel numb again
It's the best way
I'll have something to strive for
Something to work on
Can't believe I'm throwing it away
Thought I could really do it ahaha
I'm stupid
I hate myself
Becoming a therapist me ya right
My mental illness is all over the place
So is my head
Depression is real
Could I tell someone at school
Will they make fun of me
Do you think I'll be safe tomorrow morning?
Could I tell poke?
Should I go to school?
How about Derp?
Would I get bullied again?
Can I actually do this?
Should I fall back into it?
Should I try even if I cry?
What am I supposed to do?
Idk maybe I'll be positive tmr morning your fatass is eating as always
Anyway gn hope for the best tmr morning going to sleep that shower was real nice hopefully I feel better gonna have a lil cup of tea 🍵 and that's it gn

Sunshine went to get a cup of tea drank it while putting the popcorn away and decided to finally go to bed

Hi guys it's me I was wondering I kinda wanna change this book a bit more on the side of mental health awareness cuz that's what I want to specialize in so I was wondering if get TW for a warning this it might include depression anxiety body image issues relapses recovery and stuff like that also thank u for all the ppl who actually stayed w/ me on Wattpad ily all so much ❤️❤️❤️