Me

Just no

Dear diary,
Just no,
I don't want to get out of bed
I'm tried
Life sometimes feels useless
Do people actually care
My family is gone
I got no one to really turn too
No one called to check up on me are they really my friend and do they actually care??
Sometimes I just wonder is there anyone out there I can actually tell
I should really get out of bed..
I'm goin to be late to school
No ones going to notice
I'm useless and so is my life
What if I get hurt again
I don't want to
Should I have breakfast
Should I skip school
Ooff I want to walk with someone
I'm afraid
What if we have a test and I fail
What if I do bad
What if I get bullied
What if I die.
I know it sounds stupid but it really shouldn't because there are so much ways to die💔
Imma go boil water drink some tea I haven't opened the windows since yesterday it's so dark in here I should open them. I'll come back and update I think I will go to school even if it's going to be hard.
I'll probably be late it's 7:30 or so right now yup imma be late but I'm tried and dizzy

          *not in diary anymore*

Sunshine goes and puts some sink water into the kettle and boils it she finds an outfit to wear to school (it's so hard if I wear this i look fat, if I wear this people might make fun of me, if I wear this, no I can't if I get that dirty imma hate myself geez I should get some new clothes they seem like there all black and gray)
Sunshine goes and opens the windows
"What happened was there a storm??? Omg it's all black and gray geez my outfit now matches the world haha.."
(Am I blind? Like color blind?? Imma rest lets get my tea and oatmeal)

                    *back in diary*
Ooff I can't see anything right like it's all the same colors this world is so colorless maybe it's the neighborhood it's already 7:50 imma walk I think the bus is 2.75 and I need that for lunch so walking it is okay so imma leave by 8 and that'll be good I'll make it to school by 8:45 or so. Okay imma get ready :/

*not in diary*

Sunshine puts her sneakers on then walks out puts her earphones on and plays music as she walks (I want to go back) sunshine repeatedly said..

(I wonder should I get a pb n jelly or avocado n tomatoes?)

Store guy- hello what do you need?

Sunshine-Could I get um an umm avocado with tomatoes on toasted bread?

Store guy- Sure no problem

(Hmm I that'll be 1.50 I still have enough for chips I'll buy a bag and there juice is 25¢ hopefully he'll let me pass without tax🙏)

Store guy- is that all

Sunshine- could I have these too plz?

Store guy- Sure that'll be 2.75

Sunshine- okay thank you

Sunshine leaves and walks to school the teacher screams at her for being late but sunshine couldn't hear she blanked out and thought of things she wish she never remembered..

Ello! That's it I don't upload a lot but hope u liked the chapter the school work really gets in the way of making these even tho I love em 😩❤️❤️