Aphmau Boyfriend Scenarios ♡

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'Why do I put so much pressure into school, why do I think of myself as pretty? I'm selfish.. Ugly, envious, greedy, I'm an all out idiot. I cry over stupid shit, that's why my wrist hurts. I would mentally bully myself, I knew that my lies would take effect if I didn't mask them with a smile. I smile too much. I'm fake. I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm irritated. I'm stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid. My brain is stuffed with painful words. No ones ever insulted me on purpose. I haven't been beat down. I'm selfish. I make myself feel like this, but I know I'm not enough. It's stupid really, that I marked my skin because my best friend wanted to take a break. Stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid, that's me. Now my wrist stings, so good but so so bad.. I'm a moron. Thinking this would help.. But it does. It takes so much though off of certain things. Like when someone you love hurts you in an unexplainable way. It's a mental reminder to put on a smile.. Even if its fake. My words are lies. Pure bred lies. I'm selfish, stupid, nor worthy. Ugly. I need to shut up sometimes. Break my mind down, let out a long needed cry. It helps.. Remind you of things you'll never have.. I'm hurt inside, but not depressed. I feel stupid not being depressed but still hurting. Maybe there's others like me.. Doubt it. Oh well.. I'm done giving my sadness to someone else.. Bye..' -Why Do I Feel This Way? Chp. 29

Dunno why I put this in.. I'm feeling awfully homesick.. I miss my friends.

-Irene'Cracker