darkness is my light (remake)

pain...?

it's been another year I'm nineteen now and I've killed four people over the last year.  But there's one problem whenever I kill someone I think of Aubrey... that's why my new mission is to.... kill...Aubrey. so that's where I am going right know she lives in   apartment near my old house. I drive myself down and look around at the old memorys. it starts to rain really hard and I stop at the apartment, and I look at it. I step out of the vehicle, and I walk up the steps of the apartment I knock on the door. she opens it.

"your hair has gotten longer.... Aubrey..." I say. she looks at me and starts to cry.

"Sam! I'm so glad your here" she trys to hug me

"get away from me!" I yell I push her in the house, and I pull out the knife that was hidden in my pocket. "you know who murdered Talia!" "me! and I murdered all those other people as well!"

"no Sam your lying" she says. I walk closer

"Aubrey you were my best friend...now I have to say goodbye" I then plunge the knife into her skin. she falls to the ground dead blood splattered on her black hair.. then tears start to flow down my cheeks I immediately put my hand to my face. "what is this..... feeling?" "is this pain?" I run outside and down the steps I see a tree and I run over to it swirving around like a drunken old man. I come to a stop at the tree and I wipe away the tears but they keep coming out.

"what have I done?" I whisper. "I've killed my.... best friend" I jump in my car and I drive back to my dorm I run into it and I collapse on my bed sobbing. I eventually fall asleep ,and then I wake up. I get up my eyes all puffy then I walk outside my dorm and outside of the building. outside I see a puppy he is laying on the ground hurt. I pick him up and bring him to my dorm and I tend to his wounds. why am I doing this? I think to myself I guess I just...felt bad for the puppy just like I felt pain for when Aubrey died. am I developing feelings? that's impossible.. I lay the puppy down on my bed and I make my way down to the grocery store. A boy from my college walks up to me and says "so how are you doing?"

"bad" I reply. he looks at me and says "then do you wanna hang out with me until you feel better?"

I smile and say "yes" I don't know why I said yes but I said yes. I hang out with emet (that's his name) for a few hours and then we exchanged numbers. I walk back to my dorm and there's a few boys waiting for me.

"hey freak!" one of them says "did you have fun hanging out with your friends?... Oh wait you don't have any friends!" I walk into my room and close the door. "I feel..... sad"I  say. what they said actually bothered me....what's happening. Aubrey did you do this to me?