Jessica's Journals

Entry #2 Regrets

Remember all the things you've always wanted to say but they never came out?, I remember those I get them every day, the people you wanted to save, but you couldn't. You don't realize what you have until its gone... It's not just a quote its true I lost a friend that day and I didn't realize how much she meant to me until she was gone.....

 I ended up in the Vice Principals office on Monday so did Gabriella, it was the most hellish 2 hours of my life. A guidance counselor was there too, they were asking me about Tiffany and what had happened In the end, She recommended I reach out to her and apologize before I left I asked her, "Does she still go here?" "No sadly shes no longer with our school community" she replied. In that moment my heart broke my feelings for her as a friend was gone. She was a liar, a coward, she lied and when the lies caught up to her, she threw her own friend under the bus to save her own ass. I hated her for that nothing could change that. As I left the Vice Principles office my eyes were red and puffy from all the crying  I looked at Gabriella before I left she was next to be questioned, as I left I regretted what I didn't say, I didn't tell them what type of person she really was, and now I have to live with that burden for the rest of my life. 

I walked down the hall still in shock of what had just happened. I didn't immediately go back to class I turned into the girl's bathroom and cried for about 10 minutes then started back to class. On my way back I looked like absolute shit my eyes were even redder and puffier, the worse part was my boyfriend Shawn was walking down the hall with his classmates he looked at me and I looked at him. I then looked away and kept walking before he could come up to me. I turned into my language class and my friend Kylie was already there she saw me and looked at me with worry and a lot of my other classmates looked at me.  I quickly walked to the back of the class were Kylie was sitting and told her: "She doesn't go here anymore...." She already knew what I meant and hugged me. We asked to be excused and we were allowed to go cause we were one of the teacher's favorites. I went over to my locker when I glanced at the locker next to mine. Hers. The locker that once belonged to Tiffany Jones was empty... All the memories.....Gone. The girl I once knew.. was gone. My best friend was gone...