Trying

Fourth Visit

This was about two months ago now, I would have updated the next day but this visit wasn't a good one. It was after my play, he came to see the show. That not only made me uncomfortable but for three days in a row we had been preforming the show and that was our last night, I was tired as I'm sure everyone else was and frankly a little crabby because of it. He stayed after the show was over and tagged along when I went home. He was quite, didn't comment on my makeup or hair, didn't say if I was good in the show or not. If I tried to start a conversation he would give one word answers or as little as he could.

He started to piss me off, I couldn't drive him home later that night because I was drifting off ever second I could so we stayed on the couch down stairs watching movies. This is the part that pisses me off the most, he was acting all moody and distant since I seen him after the show, and that was the first time I had seen him in a very freaking long time, and he had the audacity to wrap himself around me, kiss my neck and snuggle in for the night. I didn't sleep because I was fuming, I couldn't figure out if he was alright now or if he was still pissed, I couldn't figure out how he would act in the morning.

At six in the morning I finally wiggled my way out of his grasp and went upstairs to start my normal day. He kept sleeping down stairs until eleven when I woke him because I had to go shopping.

Once again all I was getting was a cold shoulder so instead of getting him lunch and maybe spending some good time with him I just drove him home and that was it. We have had very few conversations together since then. Gave him a Christmas gift and wished him happy new year, he didn't even acknowledge me those nights, and had maybe a few hellos exchanged while passing each other. If I message him he won't respond so I gave up on that. He's a jerk I know, but twelve plus years of feelings for him can't go away over night trust me I have tried.