Welp It snowed and is still snowing. Currently I'm sitting in my living room, eating M&M's, watching the snow and listening to whatever song comes up on YouTube. I'm also freezing- why you make ask? Oh well maybe I'm wearing a summery nightgown and the house is kinda cold... Not the best idea Jenna, I know. So I still want to pursue my YouTube career but it's not going too well. First I don't have any equipment and I want to start off fantastic, although a friend of mine tells me since I'm just starting out I don't need to be all professional but I hold myself to high standards. The second issue is help. I don't really have anyone to help me with my videos- although my same friend said she would help me with it, I don't want to be a pain. I feel like I annoy her to high hell even though she disagrees I still feel bad. I'm a very needy and annoying human being- everyone can attest to that. Then there's the whole editing thing that I still can't figure out for the love of me and that's the most stressful thing to me right now. Besides all of that there's the whole creating my channel and what goes along with that- Just more stress. I think far ahead so I can be prepared which is kind of my downfall. Also my bitch-ass aunt has me freaking out to high extents. Ever since I moved- she has been totally pissed at me and I understand it- goodbye paycheck. But more than that is all my items that I collected through the years that are now probably destroyed and/or stolen. My ex- boyfriend wants me to come and see him and might even pay my way- We are very complicated so let me break this down for everyone out there reading this. Freshman year he was annoying as all hell and we had math class together. I didn't know he liked me until half of the class screamed it out at me- I'm kinda clueless. Annywayy so somehow it progressed and he asked me out( he freaking texted it out on his phone and showed it to me!) But I was afraid to say yes and asked for time to think; he was kind of let down but left me alone. ( He literally ran the fastest I had ever seen down the hallway and out of sight.) Of course being me, I tried my hardest to avoid him and continued to put it off but I couldn't anymore. It was the "week" of finals and almost Christmas Break when I got stuck with him walking me to class. I was almost to my second block final in the start of the day when he brought up I had yet to give him an answer. Mentally cringing, while holding a bag of fudge he gave me, I said yes and went to class. Or maybe I didn't..... The day went by and I was leaving school for the day with my cousin Evan, when He appears out of nowhere. I'm pretty sure he bugged me about my answer in front of my cousin when stupid Evan tells me I need to give him an answer. Soooo I did. Thinking I wouldn't see him until school started again but how wrong I was. At some point My younger cousin and I were out walking the dogs, when this totally cloaked figure heads our way. I told my cousin to go further away from me and I would deal with this. The cloaked figure came straight towards me as I yelled at it. Turns out it was stupid Blake- My boyfriend. He made fun of me for being afraid and was kinda upset I didn't attend our date. (I was actually sick and my family never let me go anywhere anyway.) So here stood the poor boy and was stuck around until his mom came to get him which wouldn't be for a while so I brought the dogs inside, went to my house and told my aunt that my boyfriend was outside. The mean hag said he needed to leave or she'd phone the cops but I explained things to her. After a while I managed to get him in the house. That was a disaster!! Blake and I had to sit at the dining room table and let everyone hear our every word. Then he accidentally cussed while in the presence of my Aunt who began to dislike him more. Blake was wild and drove me crazy, so I eventually broke up with him- over text. And went on with my life. There's a lot more stories of the two of us and I'm more than willing to share. I would just like to clarify one thing- Blake and I are on amazing terms and still close to this day- hence him wanting to come and visit him. I know this story was harsh but that was my feelings at the time and I feel terrible. I'm such a shit girlfriend lol. Annnywhooo... There's more where this comes from. Drop a comment if you'd like to hear another one <3 <3 Until then my loves :* :*
