I feel so empty. Sad, empty, and hungry ahahaha..... I saw Jake today and it wasn't good. Well it was. Then we started talking and things got dark and I know two very bad secrets that are upsetting me something awful. I make this sound so bad but I'm just upset and have a heavy heart right now. To be honest I don't want him out of my sight. I want him around me at all times no matter what. But he has a life and blah blah. I told him all the secrets I've only told my best friends in just a span of probably an hour. What the actual hell was that?! Cuz I sure as hell don't know. I'm itching to text him but- *sigh* there's always a but. I don't know. I'm really freaking upset. Like I'm always going through this type of situation but for some reason with him it's just different. Maybe it's because I know it's the God honest truth instead of a fabricated lie. Maybe it's because I could see it in his eyes. Maybe I could hear it in his voice, or maybe I just like him so much I don't want to lose him. I don't even know anymore. Just when I think I have us all figured out, I get hit with this fucking curveball and now it's going to have me worrying nonstop and constantly wanting to check up on him like the clingy and overly annoying bitch I am. But sue me. At least I'd know he's okay. Wow I'm seriously upset over this. Welp I'm gonna go have dinner. Later my loves :) :* :)
