(Ackoni pictured above) ✨SIDENOTE: hey readers I posted three chapters total today so make sure you've read the other two
✨❤️ August ✨❤️
"Birth takes a woman's deepest fears about herself and show her that she is stronger than them." - Unknown
"Your Baby is at a greater risk for brain hemorrhage. The nervous system, gastrointestinal tract, and other organs may be affected too. Preterm babies are more prone to infection and jaundice and may have difficulty feeding as well as trouble maintaining their body temperature" the doctor and two other NICU nurses were behind her as I sat in the yellow chair made for parents
"So does she have any infections or jaundice?" I asked
"No it's good she doesn't. You were 27 weeks and She was due thirteen more weeks but we most likely will keep her here in the NICU past that. Please take comfort we have tons of babies go on from the NICU and grow to be big and strong. But i have to keep you well informed on positives and negatives. The downside is survivors sometimes suffer long-term health consequences, including chronic lung disease, vision and hearing impairment, cerebral palsy, and developmental problems. Your little one is a fighter though and a blessing. She has strong vitals but we're going to let her lay on your bare chest for some skin to skin contact"
The doctor words scared me. All her medical terminology and the long term affects my daughter may face made my heart break into pieces
Ackoni squeezed my hand tight to show me support
."She's from the strongest gyal I know and her dad is defiantly a wild man. She's going be fine" he whispered.
I never even knew i would ever love someone so strong so soon. It was like i had purpose now. My baby was my heart in human form. The depression i was on the brink of going down no longer existed. I had to be strong and my baby needed me
Tears blinded my eyes looking into incubator because i hated all the struggles she may possibly face being born early.
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My baby was hooked up to a nest of wires amid the cacophony of beeping machines. She was breathing okay as of now which was a miracle in itself
I was crushed and terrified and watched the nurses wrap her into a blanket for me to hold her
I wanted to beat myself up from leaving this same hospital hours earlier but that was done now. I couldn't reverse time
It was like God blessed me unexpectedly for a reason to keep my sanity and a reason to stay strong.
I looked at her closer and couldn't really say she looked like either of us. She was pale with little peeling skin and had a head full of hair. Her eyes remained closed and her face was so tiny. She did a lazy smirk and yes it reminded me of her daddy. She whimpered so soft I barely heard it.
