i have a feeling this is turning to a full chapter book!!
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I flipped through the another page of my book which I have been reading from quite some time and to say it is really interesting and fun to read the title is 'Joker' it is really interesting how you can almost feel the villain become the hero, well not going into further details I flipped through another page when I heard birds chirping outside and the sky almost a dark blue my eyes almost came out of its sockets
Another night went like this, this the second night in a row that I have not slept and now it is definitely visible on my face I checked the time in my phone 4:36 am, it is pretty early to get up so I think I should get at least an hour sleep to start with because I have school today ....again!.
With great difficulty I closed the book and laid it beside me and took of my glasses and lay down and close my eyes but sleep is not even there a single drop, so I just lay there staring at the ceiling fan rotating .
"You two really complement each other."
What the hell! What type of thought am I getting now it, must be due to excessive need of sleep so I just closed my eyes and lay there quietly
"Awww Rehaan you are such a gentleman, lucky girl Maya"
I quickly got up breathing heavily as if I just saw a nightmare, why these thought are haunting me again.
I have long forgotten about him and I don't want to bring up memories anymore.
He pulled out the chair for me to sit and stood behind it and told me sit down and so I did and looked up to see him and being amazed to him already looking down at me
What the actual hell! Why these thoughts of all time are rushing back into my brain
I calmed myself down
I can't stop thinking myself about him, his doe eyes with long lashes, cute bunny teeth, him being only a slightly taller than me.
I can't seem to forget him even after it's been 5 years ,many of you may say it was just one of my childhood crushes but if he was just a childhood crush why am I not able to forget him.
Why do I remember him being sweet to me, why do I remember our teacher complimenting us looking cute together ,why do I remember us sharing books and going to each others' houses and meeting each others' mothers ,why do I remember him being a gentleman towards me
All this at the age of 13, seems weird right? I felt like that too
I looked at my phone opening my latest conversation
Rehaan
Okay
[8:28pm]
This was his last message, after everything he has put me through he still treats me like this, he was my first love and will always be.
I know he does not remember me from back then but I knew he was that cutie Rehaan, that gentleman Rehaan who pulled out the chair for me, that intelligent Rehaan who helped me needlessly, that sweetheart Rehaan who came to my house just to meet my mother, that humorous Rehaan who made the most difficult questions into jokes, that heartless Rehaan who left me midway crying.......
He does not remember me but I do.
I never ever mentioned this too because I am afraid if once he remembers it all everything can go downhill, I am just happy being like this.
Suffering like this
Loving like this.
