Thoughts

Relationships

"1. "i'm sorry

i don't want to

come over today."

the clock reads 4pm

and i roll over in my bed

again.

2. "i forgot it was your

birthday."

i'd forgotten my own

too.

3. "i promise i won't

hurt myself."

the ER doesn't believe

it's an accident

anymore.

4. you asked if i loved you.

i had to sneeze and it

never happened.

i think you took that

as a no.

5. we haven't had sex in a month.

6. we don't see

your friends.

we don't see

my friends.

i've forgotten

i even have any.

7. i never answered your text.

it asked if i was okay.

8. "i need you to open yourself

up for me," you said.

i stopped talking.

9. "what do you want from me,

blood?"

apparently you didn't.

10. tonight i will sleep alone

but not really.

depression will hold me

close

and stroke my hair,

telling me everything

will never be

all right."

-10 ways depression can say i don't love you (c) ohsostarryeyed